post implosion

i really need to get my shit together. i spent today trying to think and failing repeatedly. it's like my corpus callosum has imploded, leave an untraversable hollow. i'd love to blame the over-consumption of sugar, the lack of cigarette consumption, the weather, lack of a girlfriend... but in the end it doesn't matter.

what matters is that i need to perform and the only thing i'm focused on is switching off.

that meeting i wrote about took about five minutes and went alright - nothing more, nothing less.

i went back to my old team to help brother bear out - his system environment's totally screwed and it took a while to figure out how badly. the two section TL's and i decided that pool would be a good idea, so spot and i are on our way to the lincoln.

i mean, why sleep? <shameless slav quoting> sleep is for mortals!