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i watched all the die hard movies today - that was fun. that about covers everything so far... about to go and shower, then get ready for the first night seder.

it's weird to think that it's all because thousands of years ago, my ancestors escaped slavery, and witnessed crazy miracles.

that's not the only thing that got me thinking, but i got to thinking anyways:

we're emergent systems, hidden within an enormously emergent system, and it's funny that no matter how insignificant we may or may not be, each and every aspect of ourselves is so incredibly important to us as individuals.

i find it amazing that all we seem to want to do as individuals is share our sense of identity with other people, or exert influence over our environment. little kids squishing ants, environmentalists trying to save some arbitrary species at the brink of extinction, it's all the same. everyone looks for a mate that can also share in their understanding of life, the universe, etc., etc.... and that can more or less define us as a species.

i'm glad to be me. i'm don't harbour too many regrets, 'cause all the bad stuff is also a part of how i got here. i hope i succeed in what i consider to be my life's work, and if not, i'll still be happy that i'm on the path that i think is right. and i fantasize about the things i'd love to do, but can't.

i'm only writing this because of my need to share - this being my journal actually comes second, even if nobody actually reads this. what sparked this off? i was thinking of flying helicopters, and finding a soul-mate. neither of which might happen, but it feels good to play with these things in my mind.

and with that - happy holidays, and good luck to all of us as a species.

smile :)