09/03/04

i'm having difficulty getting back into study mode. i'm not entirely finished with the previous semester, and the new semester has already begun, and i just don't feel like i have it in me. i've been thinking that maybe i only performed because i was under too much pressure, and had too much to handle.

i really need to retake control of my life.

*** 7th ***

i got to class on time, only to discover that all classes were cancelled due to it being a public holiday, which i was certain was on the 8th. i could have stayed another night on the kibbutz...

instead, i spent a few hours doing prep reading in the library. the afternoon is a blank. mmf came over, and we watched all three back to the futures instead of working on our applied project.

*** yesterday ***

i got to sleep at 02.30. i woke up at 06.30, and went to taekwondo, where i trained hard until just before 12.00 - and i left early. it was absolutely awesome. about halfway through, i pulled a muscle in my back - fortunately one of the people training is a doctor (and lecturer in eastern medicine), and he gave me a ten minute shiatsu massage. it didn't really fix anything, but it did feel good.

i got home, showered, and passed out. i vaguely recall letting mmf in the apartment, and passing out again. i woke up for ghost in the shell, which we HAD to watch, and just as it finished SxS came over. we didn't get any work done. rather, we made a crappy pizza, ordered chinese, played tekken, and watched tv the whole evening. i eventually chucked the guys out around 23.30, and went to bed.

*** today ***

i had really weird, and bad, dreams last night.

after waking up, i worked on our applied project, before rollerblading to class. after class, i received an intro to martial arts from a friend of mine, who's also interested in the more spiritual and energy side of things - i'm trying to convince him to train with me (not taekwondo, the wicked-cool other shite).

i watched a bit of television, did some shopping, and spoke to my mum for the first time in weeks.

i played some counterstrike before taking a shower, and i'm practically in bed right now.