18/04/03

i just spent the whole night discussing my previous realization, that god is the othering of one's own internal power.
i have been refining this realization, and am attempting to come up with a non-contradictory version of it.

for the moment i'm not going to discuss god. i am, however, going to discuss the soul. we have been told that we are "created in god's image", and i believe that the only questionable thing in that statement is the word created.

the soul is a part of god. we know this. but it is from this that we control our bodies (and minds, i suppose), and from this that we draw our power over the rational, physical world. i refrain from giving examples, there are too many and there is no concrete proof of any of this.

this soul, is the very same thing that we call our astral body, our kundalini, our buddha, whatever. whether we believe in a god or not, we all find ourselves in times of need or desperation calling on something, and in reality all we are doing is willing something to happen (or not happen, as the case maybe).

this is the point where we are activating our own power, our own "bit of god".

i'm too tired to write this out neatly, but i'll make a better attempt later. just needed a rough draft.