JTHFSDBL

^{Just Too Hot For Sitting Down Bleeding Life}
Hot, sticky, sandy, dusty, humid, frustrating, infuriating, dirty, slimy, irritating and aggravating. these are the words that define today for me, even though i'm now sitting in a cool room after a cold shower planning on a drink and lots of sleep.

^{JUST MAKING IT}
i woke up on time this morning, but had half an hour's worth of dishes to do. i don't know what's wrong with me in the morning, and i'm beginning to think that without caffeine infusion, real cause for panic or jump leads attached to my nads, i'm just not capable of leaving with room to breathe.

^{TEAM FAILURE}
there were two people that i could rely on today, out of quite a few that let me down in a big way. everyone had their assignment and their reactions were the equivalent of getting up on a theatre stage, out of costume, and reading your lines in a bored voice. it's just not going to bring the play to life.

^{HURRIED WAIT}
we were done a favour (i love favours) by someone who had agreed to provide us with a vehicle. we were running late when he popped his head in the door, and gave us the phone number of the man with the keys - who had entered the synagogue and was going to be praying for the next half an hour. waiting for him was totally not stressful.

^{FALLING DOWN}
after getting sorted with ice and water, i was pushing two stacked containers pretty fast and i didn't notice the slightly-raised metal plate tucked into the door-jamb. the bottom container stuck, the top flew over it with me following, and i don't know what specifically my leg connected with but it's an unhappy graze / bruise. the best part of that confidence-inspiring situation was being shouted at for making a noise when the top container landed.

^{SHOPPING DISASTER}
okay, it went a lot smoother than it could have... it's just that i hate shopping on a small scale, and on a large scale i feel my chest constricting. being hungry doesn't help, either.

^{DRIVER ISSUES}
after missing the fun part of the tour, and passing out when our unit commander was speaking to us (his secretary woke me up with a text message informing me that by the look on his face i was going to be beaten), and not really eating lunch because of the heat and stress, i got on the bus to face off with the driver. he turned out to be a complete ponce, and either bitched and whined or made snide remarks and told us how crap we are.

and he couldn't much drive, either.

^{BEACH WOES}
the guys managed to find a dodgy section of beach and we ended up squatting on what could have passed for a landfill. it wasn't close enough to an area with posts for a volleyball net, which could almost be considered a good thing seeing as it was too hot and gross to play. turned out one of the coolers was left behind, and we only discovered the watermelon once we'd already thrown out the knives. couldn't play frisbee because of the otherwise-useless breeze, and i didn't really feel like going for a swim.

^LESSON
(a) team
    be extremely careful who you give assignments to. some people just don't care, and won't suddenly start because everyone's relying on them - in fact i'm fairly confident that the kinder was deliberately trying to prove that he shouldn't be given responsibility.
(b) authority
    if i can help it, i will never again take over from someone else's arrangements unless i'm going to start again from the beginning. being included halfway and not being given all the keys puts an extremely bad taste in my mouth, and i don't like having to apologize for other people's screw-ups. that's not related to (a), by the way.
(c) selfishness
    in other news, when i got back to base i had a chat with my SC, and i learned that with the other sections i should have been less helpful and trusting during the last week. i'm a bit ambivalent at the moment.