cotton wool brain

 oh, yeah... i remember now. one of the reasons i usually avoid cannabis is that it renders me extremely slow and unmotivated. after having coffee and writing up my previous post, i tried reading some more of stranger in a strange land. that put me to sleep for another hour or so. after that, i was able to think deep-feeling thoughts about my perpetual all-consuming need to be constantly doing all the things that need to get done, but not able to think useful thoughts about it, and i played a little more inscryption and watched stuff while eating breakfast.

mr smear got up, and i agreed to join him for his inscryption time after breakfast, but after he'd played for a little bit (it was a resumed game we had no context for, and he lost) his friend called to ask him to come over then instead of later. mr smear is not exactly mr spontaneous, but gd and i both pleaded with him to go, and then threatened him, and even though he initially had a shitty attitude, by the time we walked out together he was fine, and he ended up having a really good time.

hell, his friend's mom took the two of them to see the new spiderman movie, so he had a pretty good afternoon.

the challah-peño was much hotter than usual. neither of us noticed last night at dinner, but mr smear and i both noticed this morning.

i ended up taking another long nap after dropping mr smear off, and woke up to the sounds of my sister heading out for a spell. it was only after my third coffee that my brain-fog started lifting and i slowly started getting into Doing Stuff.

later, gd ran my sister through a tarot reading, which combined with the game idea i was discussing with sailor to inspire me to design something. once i had a rough idea, i then realized that one of my problems when creating a project in unity is that i'm overly-ambitious and immediately planning the full game when what i really need to be doing is iteratively exploring building the individual mechanisms that will ultimately come together to form the end result.

so today, i focused on a menu screen for a card game. between my idea and codex's access to the code and the unity mcp, i'm very, very pleased with the result ^_^

after mr smear got home, i let him have some screen time before my sister and i took him to the beach. he moaned most of the way there, and really got on my nerves, and even using ice cream as a motivator only lasted a few minutes...

... so he sat on the beach and played with his feet in the sand, refusing to put on swimming trunks and join us, and we had a great time in the incredible water (the temperature was perfect), and then enjoyed a magnificent sunset while dragging mr smear off the beach to go and get ice creams.

i almost offed my sister when we sat down at the table, due to a misunderstanding i pulled the chair out from under her as she was sitting and barely managed to get it back in time O_o

that was when mr smear told me that he'd had a pretty good day. i gave him a fist-bump and pretended to have forgotten all the grumblings and occasional violence and general meanness... on our way out of there, though, we asked him to take a photo of us and he refused, so while fortunately a stranger was happy to help us it didn't improve my vibe much :/

the walk to the bus was pleasant. the bus itself? first, a horrible smell of a passenger who peed himself, second, escaping from that smell into the high pressure of a crowded middle section with mr smear getting stepped on.

we got off a stop early, enjoyed a nice walk home, showered, ate gd's delicious concoction, watched half an hour of pacific rim, and since then i've been writing this and upgrading my auto-doc at the same time. and in a few minutes, i'm going to bed.

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my sister's returning to london tomorrow, and none of us - including her - want her to go. we talked about that at length this afternoon, i really hope we can figure something out.