messy

 i'm tired, and i have a headache. i'm still reeling from the news that a cousin's husband committed suicide a few days ago.

it was a partially successful day, i'm getting really positive feedback from my boss but i'm still wondering if he's just keeping me in a holding pattern or not. at the same time, i don't have the energy, interest or bandwidth to interview anywhere and the recruiters i dropped my guard with have been giving potential employers my contact details without letting them know i'm not jumping in with both feet.

as i type this, i've finally gotten a cdk reconfiguration right after an hour or two of troubleshooting. i also tried to get chatgpt to give me a summary of a book i read ages ago, and it straight-up lied to me! (i wouldn't even have known if i hadn't had my own copy to verify)

this morning i struggled with midjourney for a bit, i finally got the hang of giving it an image prompt and text prompt combined but it refuses to turn my entire hand into a robot hand and the results are consistently... weird. and not what i asked for.

[i'm too tired to type out a nuanced explanation, so suffice it to say that gd and i went together to pick up mr smear from school and the type of person leading the class was... unexpected. we were relieved to discover that there was no agenda, just a person, because gd and i have strong opinions on the ages appropriate for certain conversations and there are lots of people who don't agree with us]