small revelations

it dawned on me, on saturday, that i've been depressed, and burned out... more than usual. i was feeling thoroughly defeated by the combination of the israeli minister of interior / jewish agency / canadian government and i was really struggling to get through normal things.

that realization helped, at least. i've spent a fair bit of time mulling things over and making backup plans for our backup plans, and shuffled things around in my head a bit. back to one day at a time.

the pesach seder was really, really nice. it's the first time mr smear's actually engaged, he had a great experience and eventually passed out on his granny's bed - we left him there, and got to have a very relaxed sunday morning to ourselves ^_^

i did make some progress on sunday with my project, although it was very slow going and debugging react native is a pain. but eventually things seemed good...

on sunday we had a call about a different project, it was a good call but i'm not sure what direction this things going just yet.

yesterday was a long day, but today felt longer. it began with me walking mr smear to school, only to realize when we arrived that it was a tuesday, and tuesday's an outdoors day. so we had to walk all the way back to get in the car, and about half that was mr smear whining loudly that he wanted to go in the car when i'd already made clear that we were going in the car. we had words, he sulked a bit, and by the time we'd got in the car he'd calmed down and was ready to admit that he was being a bit silly. we arrived *just* in time for him to join the others as they left the meeting point, and i arrived home too late for the morning's first meeting.

from that point on it was either grinding work (two days of highly repetitive, sensitive work) or hours of back-to-back meetings, but between my work day and gd and my experience with the paperwork i feel like we made progress.

oh! and my mom's last day at work is tomorrow, she's been on contract with her employer for a couple of years now and as much as they're all sorry to see her go, ageist policies. this is not her first rodeo :(

gd and i had great fun playing rayman: origins after putting mr smear to bed - it really is an amazing game and it's probably fair to say that it's her first "real gamer" experience :)

damn. it's past 1am and i've just done fixing a bug that only shows up on a real device. out of a corner of my eye i'm watching the end of se7en, which gd noted was released more than a quarter century ago. and my nipple ring seems to be healed after a few days of being infected (not a clue where that came from), and i'm trying to decide whether to keep it in or take it out for good... that's a more difficult decision than i expected it to be.