argh!!

my work on a blockchain sdk is extremely frustrating, every step forward seems to come with two steps back. it's 1.30am and i have to get to bed, my head's cloudy with exhaustion and i just wanna get this damned thing DONE already...

a pleasant morning with mr smear, and a particularly joyful moment watching him beating levels in ink. driving home in a rush to get to the biokineticist when my car started beeping at me with no warning lights, prompting me to cancel my appointment and book the car in for a checkup in the morning (i need to take it there in less than six hours)

loads of distractions and general tiredness, sending future mr smear an email for the first time since just after he was born, getting some good work done before picking him up, a weird meltdown before getting in the elevator, napping when i felt dizzy (neck nerves?), taking little batman to the gardens and having a great time, convincing him to come down a wobbly ladder in spite of his fear and being super proud, but he chased that with some really pathetic behaviour after a little fall and halfway home i was losing sympathy fast, dinner and a shark documentary, a good shower and really nice bedtime (i told him his origin story), an episode of castle, then working really hard (ie continuing to bash my head against the wall)