begrudged and impatient

i *hate* having to control myself and not punch that little bastard's teeth out, no matter how well-trained i am. via email he continued to taunt me and talk a bunch of crap this morning, possibly thinking we're playing a game. i've shut him off and ignored everything that's come from that direction since, but it made for a bad start to an aggravating day.

and he's not alone in this. we have a couple of what i like to think of as "jerk groups" forming - at least it's not too many people all in all, but it's annoying that there's a bunch of people i'm serving with that i'm trying to have as little to do with as possible. maybe i've just been around the new guys long enough to have begun identifying the assholes.

i'm reading justina robson - selling out, the sequel to keeping it real, and a primary point for one of the character sets is [surprise!] being true to oneself. but what if i'm aware that i'm really an asshole and i don't like myself? in that case what sort of behaviour can be defined as being true to myself?

how's that for mental masturbation? in any event, i've personally got another few years to go before i can even think about being true to myself. and people wonder why i'm frustrated all the time.

my SC provided two points of inspiration today:

1) i have to give a speech, and he made a quick joke about me doing it all in english. i'm seriously considering it, just to freak out the intended audience before switching to hebrew

2) one of the guys in our section's being released, and he made a comment about potential gifts that got me to thinking, and now i'm trying to convince the guy to go ahead and do it for real

alter bridge kicks ass, and i feel like kicking my own for not having bought the albums.

and a bunch of interesting news, then i'm off to an eatliz concert with singer. i need a drink.

SWIR pretty

good green idea - solar powered phone and ipod charging

ospreys - not so bad, then?

90 times? sounds like the new hubble will provide even better wallpapers

i haven't seen this yet, but i've heard that it's worth watching. this is a pre-emptive "cool!" because i don't really want to post again tonight.

wired magazine: now that i've subscribed to the treeware version, i find it difficult to browse the site on principle...