where is my mind

wow - i don't know where to start. it's been a crazy, crazy week, and i haven't been at home aside from sleeping.

today was a fun day - but i'm guarding from tomorrow until sunday afternoon.
at least i'll be sleeping this weekend.

side note: i'm developing a really bad habit of missing the bus.

yesterday i went to the pain clinic. they're a founding member of the World Institute of Pain. that sounds VERY suspicious. anyway, the doctor there, in spite of being russian, is the first intelligent, professional, and with good bedside manner doctor that i've been sent to in this country.
WOW.
he was most helpful, and not only proved himself capable, but has sent me through for more tests, and organized me acupuncture. my hero!!!

the only really bad news from yesterday is that my rollerblades are now to be spoken of in the past tense only. i have to go and find myself new ones. at least they lasted a good amount of time (the better part of 10 years, i think).

on monday i was interviewed for a university project of one of SSSO's cousins, which was a pleasant experience. the dog's helping me to transcribe the interview, 'cause i'm working while typing this. unfortunately, as i listen to the interview being played back, along with his comments, i feel the flush of embarrassment - i'm REALLY bad at being interviewed. i say stupid, stupid things.

THE BIG NEWS: (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

i have discovered that because i'm a true lonely soldier, the usual travel rules don't apply. not only can i split up my 30 days holiday, but i don't have to wait between visits. unfortunately, i can't save them, they expire the second my year is up (end of october).

what this means:
i can use them for the two weeks my mum's here.

i can (budget willing) use them to spend the high holy days in south africa.

i can use two weeks of next year's to come in december/january (whenever my cousin's barmitzvah is) - and i can add a week of the usual soldier's vacation to make it three.

and i can still (budget still willing) make it to my canadian cousins' bar/batmitvahs!!

is this not supercool?

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moonflake said...
Wheeeee! Come to SA!!!

Budget willing??? just get yourself here...friends and family will take care of the rest! Even if we have to house, feed and clothe your sorry ass.

4/01/2005 12:49:00 PM

totalwaste said...
^_^

w-v: Zipping Quietly Over Floor Length

9/03/2005 12:43:00 AM

waitin' for the shower...

saturday:

i spent the afternoon "perfectionistically" cleaning my apartment. i decided to take a nap, and once again missed an incredible (or so i hear) party. i was fully rested by 2am, for the first time in months, and read for an hour or so before going back to sleep.

yesterday:

long day, some of which was extremely boring. i finally finished the project i've been working on - and received an ENORMOUS compliment from my commander: he was literally shocked that i succeeded!

turns out the guys working the kitchens pissed in the pots, and i *suffered* to eat there after finding this out... but i don't really have much choice :'(

evil bastards who go home to their mommies' home-cooked fscking meals...

in the evening i met up with the dog at azrieli for coffee, and we ended up playing pool near my office... we hadn't been playing 20 minutes before sammy arrived to pick me up, and we (minus the dog) went off to rehovot for a going-away / birthday party for that australian dude i like so much. i hadn't eaten much, and the guinness went straight to my head.

we had some very entertaining discussions.

today:

i got home about 1am, and woke up at 5.30 to organize hot water for my 6.10am shower. i made it *just* in time for the bus (i don't know why i keep doing this!)...

the movie we made became available today, so watched it again - AMAZING!! put some finishing touches on my project, and sorted out this whole hip-hop thing. we even played volleyball to finish off the day.

i went with the mongoose to azrieli for coffee (i do that a lot), and was then picked up by a cousin of SSSO, and we went to his place so he could interview me for a varsity project. t'was fun, but i only got back after midnight, and now i have to shower before getting very little sleep.

on the plus side - i'm waking up a bit late, and going to get acupuncture in the morning!!

w00t!!

buzzzz... and aren't *I* mister popular!

my word - i got to bed at 6, and between 6 and 1 i've had three calls:

1) my teammate singing along to "lean back". i couldn't understand half of what he was singing

2) the mongoose, who dropped me off at home at 6. shoulda known better.

3) my boss - who i'm now waiting for to call again

today is definitely cleaning day.

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last night
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i walked to the lizard, and it was cold. so cold.

the music sucked, but the mermaid was there, so i had to go and speak to her (which entailed dancing). i was expecting it to be weird, but it was actually quite alright. the mongoose got off work after about an hour or so, and we went off to the "dimension" (meimad).

which r0xx0red something silly. GREAT music, showings of freddy and zombie movies... and - the - girls - were - ab-so-lute-ly FABULOUS. i get chills thinking of some of them.

we didn't stop dancing / bouncing / pogoing the entire night. met up with some girls from the base (looking VERY sexy), and just before we left some girl came running after me with her friend's number (kinda cute, i'll play this game ^_^)... good for the ego =D

i'm now waiting for hot water, so's i can shower, then wash floors - and go back to sleep. my ears are SO not working.

pretty - pretty - and i can dress up!

as myself!! and people smile and think "he's in the purim spirit" :P well, i am, usually :)

i stopped off at azrieli, found two good books (one present, one for me), and a nice card. i then bladed to the tayelet, but didn't find anyone... this was because my informant was wrong, and the festival thingy was on dizengoff... which i found by accident. the festival thing sucked ASS. and i got into a fight over a line for a hot dog, and - i - do - NOT fight over food.

so i ate humus on ibn gvirol, which was tasty, but the shop itself was weird as hell. i took a bus to herzliya, visited a friend, then went off to her place. t'was fun, her sister liked my gift and they got dressed up for supper :P

supper was really nice, and i just got back now. i found a cockroach in my bathroom - i *HATE* cockroaches!! and that's about all that's interesting at the moment.

i'd crash for an hour, but i know i wouldn't wake up. party time on the way!

garbage day

wednesday night's party was aweful, so we ran out really quickly. there's a limit to how much sexy 17-year-old flesh one can be surrounded by before being tempted.

i hate not having a solar water heater - by the time i finally got to bed it was around 2.30am...

i had a GREAT start to my day yesterday: i found a sweet route to the base, one that doesn't equate blading with sweating. i left without pressure, i got there about 5 minutes after the bus would have, i got exercise, and i got to wear my overalls.
can't get much better than that to put a smile on my face ^_^

the day was a bit rough - trouble with cigarettes, and the work i was doing drove me NUTS. starting to get a better feel for it, though. and played a bit of frisbee, although the frisbee itself, and a couple of the players, really sucked.

the girl who asked if i could sing like a rapper got hold of us!! she wants me and one of my teammates to rap for about 2 minutes (damn!) for a function on tuesday night... we have to come up with a beat and the lyrics, and learn them, and i have no idea yet what the point of the song is going to be.
no pressure *huff* *huff* *huff*

bladed past the supermarket on my way home, there's a deal for lonely soldiers that they provide us with NIS 120 worth of goods each month. time to purchase myself some razor blades. and some skittles.

got home, did my laundry, showered, and tried to sleep for a couple of hours before going out. meaning, i didn't succeed in waking up until 7.30am... apparently i missed an INCREDIBLE trance party at the lizard. oh well. my system's still in shock that i've slept enough...

i've had a calm breakfast, done some work, and now have to go pressie shopping for kc's 17 year old sister... i have no clue what to get... i hate pressie shopping...

bobbing and weaving

and god continues to mix in the rewards with the punishments...

today began badly. that's the nicest thing i've said about this morning until now. i got up just fine, was out of the apartment in time, but was halfway to the central bus station - eagerly anticipating coffee, i might add (i just did?!) - when i realized i'd left my referral on the base.

so i hopped off, feeling pretty damn stupid, and got to a busstop for my usual line. i asked the group if my bus had passed already, and they said yes. completely dejected, i crossed the road and headed for another line... and watched as my line drove past the stop i'd just left. the bastards LIED. that just pissed me RIGHT off.

so i had to take a complicated route to the base, practially run to my office, get the forms, and literally RUN to the stop on the other side to catch a bus to the central station.

MAN that sucked. i HATE running for buses, and i was running late to boot.

i wasn't in the best of moods when i got to the orthopaedic building, with 10 minutes to spare. so having to wait for two hours, only to get sent to another waiting room for another hour, kinda didn't impress me. not only that, my appointment only lasted 5 minutes, the doctor simply giving me two MORE referrals.

because i obviously haven't received enough.

to be fair, the referrals are good ones (one for physiotherapy, one for acupuncture), and he even tested me to make sure that i haven't lost feeling in the relevant (upper) body parts.

so i made my way back to the base. ended up on a bus filled (to bursting) with russian teenagers on their way home. the kid next to me found a can of red spraypaint, and suddenly started spraying the poor bald kid next to him - totally covered his head and face. stank like hell, too.

it took me about an hour to calm down. on a better note, once i did i found out where the girl from last night sits, and arbed around with some friendly people. i didn't do a hell of a lot of work, and then suddenly it was home time! i'd received a call from the company i work helpdesk for, to say they needed me to come in at 7pm.

i missed the bus home by about half a minute.
again.

i eventually got home (rushed) at 18.30, picked up my spanky overalls and a pair of shoes, and fled to work... i took a wrong bus line, and had to walk rather a large distance in a hurry. i got to work ON TIME. it took about 20 minutes before anyone started explaining the job to me.

fsck sakes.

but that's okay - i finished a huge part of it, and it's always nice working here.

my mom called, so i filled her in on all the details. i also included the bit about me figuring out what tattoo i want - she is NOT impressed. surprise.

so, i'm planning on going to a crazy party within the next hour, i hope i get some sleep before the army tomorrow ;)

WHOA!!!

WOW! i am TOTALLY blown away. i'm in shock, and i haven't been this satisfied in AGES!! (notice excessive use of exlamation marks)

last night i finished a whole bunch of work before going to bed. Check.

this morning, i got dressed up in what turned out to be a seriously successful rapper outfit. we didn't work at all the entire day (aside from a few minutes in the morning, which involved me playing practical jokes on our client unit).

we spent the day in turn preparing for the evening events, in turn at the "carnival", which was a LOT of fun. jumping castle games, marshmellow chocolate fondue, some great music, and generally good fun.

in the evening, we had a live band (which SUCKED THE BIG ONE), suffered through a couple of speeches, and then had the dress-up competition. we didn't come first, but we SERIOUSLY had fun. we all got up, i said a couple of words ("we don't have to say shit, dj give us a phat beat"), we danced about, did some rabble rousing, and then paraded off to an enormous applause.
that was a real trip, i get high off of that shit.

afterwards, some total babe called me over and asked me if i could sing like a rapper. i didn't understand the question (t'was in hebrew), and i responded something inane and irrelevant. it was only afterwards that i thought about what she asked, and now i *have* to find her and find out what it's about... so curious...

we then *finally* watched the movie that i played Jay in. firstly, the entire movie ROCKED. it was totally professional, the story was good, and it was completely styling.
secondly, i was certain that we fucked up the scene i was in, and it turned out BEAUTIFULLY. man, i could almost swear i *was* Jay ^_^

so i've been on a complete and utter high since. i just got back from the base, after a pleasant walk, and i'm planning on doing a little work before going to bed.

my doctor's appointment's in the morning, so i get to chill a bit more... and there's a chance that the dog might be moving over to us tomorrow! i'm excited, even though we've been waiting for more than 2 / 3 months, and there's no guarantee...

whatever. life is goooooooooooooooooood.

wee-woo-wee-woo

horrible, horrible day. it began with me missing my bus, and running to *just* make it in time for a later stop.
i HATE running for buses.

most of the day simply sucked. although the project i'm currently working on IS interesting, and definitely challenging, i'm just not in the mood for ANYTHING.

i got a ride home, started adding laces to my overalls (so i can tie them to keep them from falling down). the dog called, and i went to meet him for coffee at azrieli. not only do i feel much better now, but i have a really cheesy (and expensive) hat to dress up tomorrow with!

i've got tons of work to do, so i'm quickly blogging and /.ing (whee! mod points!) before working/showering/sleeping.

beware the nothing, atreyu!

good heavens.

i spent most of my morning waiting for the doctor to see me... to tell me that i need to go back to the orthopaedist (and it only takes a month to get an appointment). after much screaming, shouting, and sitting around like a vegetable, i managed to get the appointment moved forward to wednesday.

does EVERYTHING in this country require aggression?!

i had very little to do today, and almost no concentration span. i arbed, and i arbed badly.

after getting home, i began a load of washing, and went for a blade. i got completely and utterly lost, and even though eventually i got back - i've no clue how.

i did manage to pick up a sewing kit on the way. good for me!

i got back to a stuck washing machine... turns out it has problems with one of the numbers on the dial. when i tried to deal with it, i managed to release a large quantity of water... that sucked. i managed to figure something out though.

i talked to my mom, showered, and have been doing bits and pieces of work since. i'm exhausted... i think it's bedtime.

c# - i'll get you if it's the last *urk*

dammit. i want to rant about the sheer stupidity of C# + ASP.NET + HTML forms, but it's SO not worth it.

the day was relaxed (aside from lunch that made me miss the food on base), but the bus ride home took TWO AND A HALF HOURS. damn traffic. at least my washing line's in one piece.

i came home, learned about C# + ASP.NET thumbnails - turned out to be really simple, and then went off to the lizard. there was some band playing

<inserted at appropriate moment> DAMMIT! i just tried to get rid of a cockroach, and it fscking DISAPPEARED as i tried to sweep it away! DISAPPEARED!! i had my eyes on it the whole time! DAMMIT! <end insert>

live, but they were so bad that less people turned up to see them than they have members. so sad. anyway, i chilled with the mongoose for an hour or so, before coming back to deal with aforementioned html forms... but the damn things are more complicated than the thumbnails.
thank you microsoft.

*happy ice-cream gurgle*

i was barely aware of supper and the ensueing after-dinner conversation. what did get my attention, however, was men in black 2.

DAMN. they done made that thar movie good. i could watch it again... and again... just like the first!

that, in combination with holy man that i watched this morning, make me wanna see independence day again...

i woke up around 3.30am, /.'d a bit, and finally found the c# solution i need. when i got back to bed, i had strange, strange dreams... one of them involved beating the crap out of a wife-beater, and then peeing on him. the second one also involved beating someone, but that's all i can recall. everything has this warped military kind of environment. i think the army may be getting to me.

it IS, if i consider the fact that my general level of politeness and consideration have dropped to barely above zero. it's insane how perfectly apathetic i'm becoming... and very slightly worrying.

daysleeper

it was a relaxing afternoon in general. i just found my nike shoes that i bought in south africa... and totally forgot about!! i *KNEW* i had a decent pair of shoes somewhere!!

w00t!

off to supper in a bit. that's all the excitement this day has brought. i like.

-buzz-

wow - i woke up a couple of hours ago, with a hangover and an almost empty wallet.

last night was gooooooood... excellent, in fact. murphy's sponsored the st. paddy's day party, and it was STYLING. the music totally, but TOTALLY rocked, and the company was great. fun overload!!

i'm on my way to the kibbutz, priority 1 is getting my washing line back here :P

*YAWN* *virtual stretch*

i just slept SO well, it hurts to be out of bed. but i do have work to do, and i should eat something before going out to celebrate st. paddy's day.

weather-wise, it was a great day. we had almost no work to be done, so i just arsed around. actually, i was trying to build something useful, but got stuck with windows' threading model.
it sucks when you copy and paste code from the msdn to vc++, and it STILL doesn't compile.
i've made it my mission to learn the MFC while we're still lacking pressure.

wow - that totally sums up my day!

third post: "weirded"

third post: i finally learned to copy text in case of net failure. only two tries!

i finally made that call, and said "goodbye". it was a sucky, sucky call. i guess the mermaid's not liking me very much right now - it's pretty safe to say that i handled it badly.

aside from that, the day was good. played ms pinball this morning, attended a farewell party, and fixed some bugs.

ooh - and it turns out i have a slipped disc. it's only been really screwed up for two months, apparently i complain too much.

i went to work in the evening, to spend some time with sammy before he goes off to a week in a five-star hotel in barcelona... lucky, lucky bastard!

i made the call when i got home, then bladed to the base. the round-trip, getting lost and almost killing myself multiple times, took about 45 minutes. i finished building my desk when i got back (it -is- nice to type this sitting on a chair!), had a shower, and i'm trying to do a bit of work before crashing.

yeah, not really succeeding on that score. and i am feeling kinda crap about the phone call.

now's good, now's good

that's a loose translation from the song i've been listening to, but it sums up my evening.
getting home with the box of wood was a bitch, but i dropped it off and put on my blades.

it took me about 15-20 minutes to get to rabin's square, where we played frisbee for well over an hour (6 people, 3 frisbees) - DAMN it's fun playing frisbee on blades!! and only 1 tiny injury (to a typing finger, but i'll survive ;>)

i just got back, begun putting my desk together (it's nice)... and now gonna shower and go to bed.

satisfied.

bump bump bump

*pleased sigh* listening to some seriously thumping trance streaming from work. and i can be fairly certain the pc won't crash - which actually makes the experience far more enjoyable than at home.

i tested my washine machine today - it works! IT WORKS! IT'S ALIVE!!!

i decided today that i'm pretty much sick of the whole mermaid story. i can't be fscked.

the day was very boring workwise, which was satisfying, as i had time to code in c (first time in yonks, it was such a pleasure ^_^). i built an xml parser to transfer a report of ours into outlook: i'm rather proud.

i had a huge fight with our new kid, who's got a big head and no experience... he was argueing with me over how wonderful and perfect his project is (i had to grade him), and it was absolutely aweful. in general it's not wise to tell your grader he has no idea what he's talking about, but to do it when your project's not even up to "shabby" is just rude.

wow - that about covers my day. oh, and carrying a moerse heavy desk on the bus home.
umm, and i've only had two smokes today... feeling a bit better, but i still want another one.

ooh - GREAT track. i'm gonna sit here and bounce a bit.

dunno. i just - don't - know.

today was LOUSY.
i think.

i tried to quit smoking, my tally at the end is 2.5 cigarettes. i was so aggro this morning that i shouted at the head of the support division... that was a pretty stupid thing to do.

workwise, i did f***all - my commander caught me sleeping towards the end of the day, and finally gave me an interesting task. in addition to that, tomorrow i'm all by myself, and responsible for the successful release of 800 soldiers. if anything goes wrong with the systems, the buck stops with me.
quite exciting o_O

and our section head decided today that i'm not learning hebrew fast enough. that sucks.

it took me 4 buses and a train to get to ra'anana, but i did remember to buy washing powder :) i spent a couple of hours at the mermaid's, which produced some seriously mixed feelings, and then dropped off the money i owe at the telfed offices.

bussing home took 2.5 HOURS. i can't say it's been productive.
i'm gonna test the washing machine in the morning (i realized on my way home i have no place to hang up washing - will have to make do with the shower), so i'm going to shower before bed and pray that i don't die from exhaustion in the morning.

smooth...

boy howdy, that shor wuz a big 'un!

i just transferred the most professional looking piece of asp crap to my boss. it's a time-bomb for the application we've been working for, in case the clients don't pay on time. so cute ^_^

today was weird as hell. GREAT morning (although i was totally wasted from last night), and i *did* get to sleep in the afternoon. had a couple of random embarrassing moments (due to my lacking hebrew, actually), and i discovered that the gundam book i spent NIS 55 on was a total waste of cash and processing time. i hope i can trade it or something.

oh, and the mongoose and i have decided to do the whole lent thing (minus the understanding due to our being jewish and all)... no smoking, no spending cash on the base.

ooh, ooh - st. paddy's coming up!!

i got my rollerblades back from SxS's parents >D
and i got my cheque from my boss >D
my washing machine is ready for testing (although i needs to gets me some washing powduh) >D
and i'm going to have a hot shower and go to bed now >D

funned out

what a weekend. almost nothing happened on friday night. i watched the garden state, which was BRILLIANT.
at 3.30am i got a call to join the mermaid for coffee, but there was no way in hell i was gonna get out of my warm, cozy bed, and then walk for 25 minutes in the freezing cold.

i got up around noon, chilled a bit, then met up with her and her boyfriend and went to her parents place for lunch. t'was yummy.
her father gave me a ride to the mermaid's place, where i had intended to break it all off on account of the sheer impracticality.
instead of being direct, i just started talking about it, and we came to an understanding that more than satisfies me - i'm left with no reservations about this girl whatsoever. i REALLY like her.

after a calm evening watching cartoons, her mom made brilliant pancakes (although i ate way too many), and then i took the bus to tel-aviv, where i met up with the mongoose and a couple of other friends from the base at the dance bar. we danced until about 1am, and i'm now waiting for hot water before i shower and crash.

i feel good about how today went.

gargling with life

i'm AMAZED that i'm not sleeping right now.

we finished work at 4am, i'd been sleeping fitfully - fortunately the quiet night stayed quiet. i left at 4.20, and made it back to my place at 5 - would've been find minues the exhaustion and freezing cold.

i slept till 12, had a FSCKING cold shower (i didn't have time to turn on the hot water cylinder), and met up with the mongoose at azrieli... mmmm, waffles. i almost passed out in the middle of my morning coffee. unusual.

we walked through some of the more interesting streets in tel aviv, and ended up playing pool at the lincoln. afterwards we came back to my place, and watched lots of invader zim.

planning this evening with the mermaid has been a bit difficult. i hope it all works out - would be FINE if one of us had a car.

i'm gonna try playing counterstrike now... i hope my pc doesn't fail...

what happened? where am i?

right. last night i went to bed, and woke up this morning. still not enough sleep - nothing to be done about that.

umm - nothing too remarkable happened today, aside from a short, pointless visit from the division head (we had to be on our best behaviour). oh, and i went to get my ct scan done. i would've felt much better if the doctor had said "keep your eyes closed", instead of reading a warning in english inside the machine that cautions against the effects of the laser on one's eyes.

i can feel the mutations beginning already.

got home, took my laundry to be done, sorted out the bank stuff (finally!), and took a slow walk to work.

we have a new guy listening in on my calls, fortunately (for me) it's been a quiet night. i'm praying that it lasts.

suddenly glad i never liked d&d

i just read an article affirming the general understanding we have in the army that d&d is unappreciated. hmm... suddenly i understand why the guys i tried playing with were so concerned about keeping it "hush-hush".

i just got back from a chocolate festival, which had AMAZING (and VERY tasty) wares. i'm totally satisfied.

yesterday was AWEFUL. the weather was smarmy, and i was not only exhausted, but irritable most of the day. not the mood to act the part of jay (sans good costume). my mood did pick up when the sun came out, after a combination of coffee, ice-cream, and cigarettes...

i went through to the mermaid's place last night, and we had a really enjoyable evening. when i left it was raining, and i was still tired (coffee has limits)... the bus driver stopped the bus halfway to scream at me for lying down (and my feet WEREN'T on the seats), and then i took a taxi: the driver showed me a massive knife, explaining that you never know what weirdos you'll run into in tel aviv in the middle of the night. after listening to him jabbering for 5 minutes, i was postive that HE's the psychotic one...

had an incredibly beautiful moment - watching the rain falling on a building spotlight from below. breathtaking in real life.

i don't have a clue how i got out of bed this morning... i slept every opportunity i got, and was still wasted by the time i got to the clinic at the tzrifin base. when the specialist finally saw me, he declared that he thinks i have a slipped disc (i've only waited a month to find that out), and i need to go for a CT scan... i managed to organize an emergency CT scan appointment due in one month and a week.

wow.

fortunately, they had a cancellation, so i got it moved forward to tomorrow. thank you, lucky star!

going to shower, going to bed.

only monday?!?!

i'm DYING from exhaustion, i'm dazed and confused... maybe i'm coming down with something. hope not!!

yesterday was amusing. i got to the train station at 9.50, and the dog got the *just* after me... he fell asleep on the way to his base (lol). i got to the base in time to do sweet f***all. the systems were all down (we got so bored we watched episodes of invader zim), and by 1pm my commander told me to go home.

i was -ON- my way to the bus, already visualizing a day at the beach... and i heard someone shout that the systems were back up.
SO depressing. i spent the day fixing the backlog of problems we'd been able to avoid since thursday... it sucked. it sucked all the joy outta my day.

when i got home, i found an abandoned washing machine with a sign saying "free - good condition" hanging on it. i turned the sign over, and wrote a message saying "this washine machine claimed by a lonely soldier. should you choose to ignore this sign, his suffering will be on your conscience." i then left it, and went to azrieli center, to have a chat with the dog, and then went to ra'anana for my third date with the mermaid.

the date went really well, considering i managed to break all sorts of dating taboo's, and it ended with the sweetest (and shortest reak) kiss i've had in YEARS. it put me in really good spirits.

today was boring as hell, and totally crazy. aside from feeling warped and woozy, and having relatively little to do... i've been informed that for the next few weeks, i'm in charge of my team. that's quite a responsibility, quite an honour.

i spent most of the day worrying about the mermaid. i'm not entirely sure i'm ready for a relationship, even though that is what i've been looking for. i'm so confused about how i feel, but i care about her enough that i don't want to hurt her - or not commit. strange.

we spent the day shooting a movie, fixing bugs, and generally arbing around. one of the guys from the base (too nice for his own good... i'll call him spite :P) came home with me, and helped me move the enormous washing machine up from the 2nd to the 3rd floor - and then helped me clean the stairwell afterwards.
damn.

got a visit from the previous owner - such a nice girl! she's really jealous that it's mine - all mine! ^_^

i just spoke to the mermaid, we're going to meet tomorrow. i'm emotionally bracing myself :P

*relaxed*

last night was really chilled, and i put myself to bed fairly early. with the 5th harry potter book - not bad, actually.

i woke up at 6.30am. WHY, PIGGY?? WHY?!?!

most of the day was spent moving my cousin's mother-in-law to a new home. it was fun, and good exercise, but by the time we were done i was spent. i got up an hour or so ago (watched most of save the last dance, VERY nice), and have decided to just chill and go back tomorrow instead.

of course, that means not meeting the mermaid - i didn't expect the phone call to go as well as it did. i really like her. really really.

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damn. i passed out last night, shortly after posting.
i got two phone calls... the first of which was really weird. i took the call, i recall having a vague idea of what was being said (it was her), and i was mumbling complete and utter crap. i still have no idea what was said, like someone else was talking through me. or something.

the second was the dog - all i remember was telling him to shut up, which was impolite, and that i'd meet him at the train station in the morning. at least it was more coherent.

i woke up at 6.45am.

i repeat: i woke up at 6.45am.

WTF?!?!

i spent the morning slashdotting (i got rated 50% funny, 50% troll for my second post ever!) and getting ready to come to the kibbutz... i met up with the dog at the train station, and the bus ride was quite enjoyable, ignoring the motion sickness i had by the time we arrived in afula.

we had some iced-coffees, he left and i went to visit my cousin. i crashed almost as soon as i got here (although i *had* to eat in the mess hall, the food is so much better than on base)... and now i'm just chilling.

:)

good heavens!

how could i possibly forget?? i just managed to get chocolate all over my face, and it reminded me of a really nice incident that occurred during the afternoon - i went to go visit my welfare officer, and walked in as they began a round of timtams and coffee... i got back to my office an hour later - had to explain myself to my commander, who politely pointed out that i had chocolate all over my chin...
*silly grin*

*extremely happy sigh*

every now and again i remember that EVERYTHING in life is about attitude.

last night, in spite of my exhaustion, i went to pool with the dog. we really enjoyed ourselves, and they serve GIANT coffee, which i really needed :)

also a plus, on the way home i got a taxi, and managed to win the traditional money argument. so i got all the way home for only twice the price of a bus... that never happens!

i got a lot more sleep this morning than i've gotten used to ^_^
i spent an hour at the bank, got mostly sorted out, and made my way to the base, for a really chilled day. the ceremony for which we did exercises yesterday was long and boring, but not TOO bad. our new badges SUCK though...

the rest of the day was awesome. i've almost completed my new tetris, i learned some cool shit with oracle, and i've been selected to play the part of jay (as in jay and silent bob) in a short movie being produced by our new unit - and they asked me to write the dialogue. that was cool.

early in the afternoon, our network went down, so we milled around, and got invited to play volleyball - YEAH! i really had fun.

on the way home i ran into a guy i did my basics with, and after he left i continued talking to the incredibly hot girl who works with him :) another ego boost...

i have my laundry, i'm planning on either going on another date tonight with the mermaid, or chilling and doing the date tomorrow. i am so chilled ^_^

smoking more, caring less. shit happens.

-_o

i had a much better day today. i woke up at 4.30, because the streaming audio channel switched from amazing ambient to what i can only describe as the sound of a man with a wooden leg walking on a tin roof.

couldn't get back to sleep.

the whole day was fairly peaceful, aside from standing in the sun for an hour's worth of exercises. forgot what it's like to be a soldier :P i discovered that the beautiful girl i was hunting was asking around looking for me, so my ego got quite the boost. and i'm almost done with an online tetris.

i'm finding it harder and harder to quit smoking. seriously, it's killing me.

as for the date last night, i'm finiding myself agitated at my lack of transport. i really enjoyed myself, but getting there without being able to stay there puts a damper on things... must fix the situation, i rate.

errr... where am i?

what a hectic day. i don't have a clue how i got out of bed this morning, and i got to the base late... i was a complete zmobie (yes, intentional) the entire day, and was on the verge of collapse until around 4pm.

i left the base early, made it just in time to the post office, paid my electricity bill, went and had a haircut (finally!), then made my way to ra'anana, and met up with the mermaid for coffee... went well, talked until there were no busses left to take me home ^_^

i was blessed with a kind taxi driver, who DIDN'T rip me off, gave me a cigarette, AND dropped me off closer to home than i expected.
wow.

so i'm feeling pretty chuffed, just started chatting with my mum, so must sign off.

good night ^_^

long, long day

and mixed up, too. i just got back from training, so my legs feel good and the rest of me broken - one of the new kids beat the snarf outta me... i really enjoyed myself ^_^

i started off the day pretty early, went to the immigrant authority first. on the way i overhead a "religious" american threatening his wife, and when i looked in their direction i saw she had a black eye.
i really wanted to do something, or say something, but i knew that anything i said or did would only make it worse for her.
life just sucks sometimes.

turned out i didn't need to be there - so i went off to the "city officer" for some papers. i wish they'd let them use airconditioners, the place was BOILING, and it wasn't very hot outside. i'd hate to think what summer there's like.

i called the girl from friday night - i was SO nervous before calling - and the phone call was nice and easy. i don't know why i panic so much.

i went to the jerusalem bank, which turned out to be a pleasant experience... minus the fact that i have to *HOPE* that the money they're supposed to give me goes through, because i didn't have my new account number.

i went to a random bank branch, they were most unhelpful. so i returned all the way to my bank branch, where i hit "rush hour". fortunately, after waiting 20 minutes some elderly gentleman let me talk to the manager, which took all of 5 seconds.
always happens like that.

i made my way back to the base.

i tried to quit smoking. i tried to chill a bit. but the second i resolved myself, everything in our office went completely nuts. one of our systems went down, and one of them needed working on. i had to learn a completely different system while trying to find the problem with the first. and my team leader disappeared.

let's just say my stress levels were nothing to be jealous of, and by the time suppertime rolled around i was ready to kill myself, and take everyone else down with me.

supper sucked, as per usual, and waiting for the bus home did nothing to lift my spirits. due to all these things, i hit upon the ingenious idea of going to training.

and it was totally worth it.

some girl from the university recognized me, but i have no idea who she is. when she saw me, she just stared, and i stared back - for about 10 seconds things were really quite awkward. after that it was fine, and we had an enjoyable conversation about stuff^tm.

met up with the dog, took the bus to training (i managed to lose my balance, and didn't catch onto a handrail in time... most unsoldierly of me - i hit the window to gasps and guffaws), and the rest is written.

so yeah, i let out a lot of aggression, and i feel better for it.