realization

it just hit me - tomorrow i have to make the biggest decision since 2000, when i upped and left for israel. of course i'm nervous as hell. i'm scared shitless... this meeting directs the course of the rest of my life.

i'm praying i'm going to choose correctly, and there's no way to know. in fact, if things go well, i'll only have a clue how i did mid-way through next year.

that's - fucking - frightening.

i made an attempt at importing my blog to wordpress. i'm *this* close to giving up; i keep receiving server timeouts, and it imports most of the blog just fine, but has 4 copies of each post for about two months, and the last few months are missing entirely. that's annoying as hell. and i can't delete multiple blogs, and i don't want to destroy the entire blog, so if you have any helpful suggestions, please post them here!