lactation consultation

yesterday:

a day full of poop, a long, hot, frustrating shopping walk, not getting much rest, sterilizing equipment and learning too late that i'd bought the wrong tubing*, a visit from horseman, dinner and junk food and rls

this morning so far:

1am feeding waking up feeling horrible for the third day in a row

4/5am waking up to gd's feeding frustrations and desperately researching latch issues with medela nipples: i finally came across http://thebreastfeedingmother.blogspot.ca/2012/07/the-trouble-with-calma-and-quest-for.html and it's now abundantly clear that all of these companies are a bunch of liars taking advantage of parents with no solid resources**. the lactation consultant's "shangri-la nipple" (as gd put it) doesn't seem to be available anywhere, either.

fortunately, gd's brother bought us the playtex one recommended by the article and the medela bottles won't be a waste because we need them for pumping...

* hating medela so much right now

** and actually managing to hate them even more