Tuesday, March 31, 2015


*last* sunday:

a most decadent morning spent working hard on a poetry video
le juicy lotus for a great lunch (the owner's daughter shouldn't have talked about us in hebrew)
godmother's for coffee, some helpful advice but a frustrated gd
signing up for fiverr
evening exhaustion

*last* monday:

drafting an apology to k-twang
early coffee mission in freakishly cold wind
not the worst monday - awesome trance, some fun python and a very short nerf battle, an incredible compliment to start my day and my new poem really starting to feel *good*

running around for a dryer part, finally finding it but in the wrong size...

a long chat with my mom followed by a long chat with gd, dinner fail


poetry video inspiration, metro practice
being stupidly tired at work, caffeine not helping 
a long lunch prepping my poem
facepalming to my previous team deploying broken code
gd's cryptic midday message
leaving late and tired with a pinching nerve and blurry vision
quick shopping and peaceful welcome


a good morning, if a little slow, running into an old gym-buddy / new co-worker on the metro while trying to learn my new poem

really? sql injection emergencies? why do we bother performing code reviews?

star fluxx is AWESOME.
<embarrassing bathroom incident>
learning - at the end of the day- that i'd spent a day doing the wrong thing, but at least learning a lot on the way

a new illustrator on board! perfect timing ^_^
joe rogan - live from the tabernacle
the 11.30 homeless phone call


complaining about 6.30am and thinking about four months' time
rushing to the wrong wing of the hospital


the most sublime, psychedelic ultrasound experience: we have a little man on the way! seeing him formed, from his brain to his heart to his tiny toes, his posing and his reposing...

... unreal. amazing. beautiful. exhilarating.


firefighting while high on the morning's experience, facebook ghost-writing for hac, awesome amba group pushap lunch, manager daddy-lecture and nerf wars, working late but methodically getting stuff done

home late, short rest, dinner and nutrition inspiration, fly swatting

starting my son's email dropbox, being touched by the first hour of the intouchables


a violently sudden wakeup realizing that i needed to go to the passport office, straightforward procedure, slow but good work progression, godmother dropoff

even as a joke, don't accuse a manager of cheating at fluxx :(

long day, ending late, big compliments
gd's brother's surprise, shopping, family planning, the century of the self and being too tired to eat


a great night's sleep but waking up from disturbing, tedious dreams involving people trying and failing to be decent and a dungeons and dragons mission that involved a LOT of spiders and a cherry bomb under the grotesque corpse of a fallout-style alien.

a social media morning, a little stressed about things in general (why can't the world just be cool for a minute?) and skipping what could have been my last opportunity to snowboard this season because it's too expensive and we're about to travel...

a short day resting, chilling, adoring the end of the intouchables (magnificent!), going to bed early

-- kicking rls in the legs --


good start mailing the future, warshaw curtains fail and walmart desperation, all while tightening up my new piece and preparing to record

hanging curtain-rails, lunch, shopping, first-world problems, saying goodbye to the old apartment, sudden exhaustion before packing, walking the dog, packing


sleep of the dead, long coffee and flight comics

rushed morning at work, closing down my sprint, stupid rush to finish packing (i'd done my part) - nothing like having to hurry to wait for many hours because gd's brother wanted to "do us a favour"

flight cancellation on a two-leg trip when travelling pregnant: wow. but the reroute through london is at least a chance to see some family...

Sunday, March 22, 2015

linkage! and fat rants.

apple's losing it.

robert downey jr.'s winning it.

guitar solo faces explained.

earl sinclair IS notorious b.i.g.!

tanyer's rules for jiu-jitsu are spot on

america's making strides in the war on the war on drugs! they're now starting to get the message on a federal level. well done!

speaking of backwards things, rick scott is an asshole.

ooh - a tattoo pain chart.

okay, so i think abby howard's AWESOME. but she did this comic on body image recently that upset me. why did it upset me? because being healthily large is NOT a problem, but being obese IS. it's unhealthy, and it puts a load on our health services and increases our resource requirements when we're already beyond capacity. it's not offensive unless you're sharing space on crowded public transport which isn't designed for obesity, like in economy class on planes; if somebody doesn't like the look, well, that's their problem and they can keep it to themselves.

but my real frustration stems from the fact that she's apparently into science, and she talks about how she's tried eating healthy. really? like, whose idea of healthy? was it a fad diet, like low carbs or paleo? or the "i'm not eating dessert" diet? because if she'd actually bothered to do a little research, she might have come across the huge body of literature that shows convincing evidence that the only "healthy" diet is a whole-food, plant-based one. if you're eating the western-consumer diet, where "healthy" means eggs and bacon for breakfast, red meat and chicken salads and lots and lots of dairy... well, that's not healthy.

show me a picture of an obese person on a whole-foods, plant-based diet. not vegan, because not eating animal products does not equate to eating healthy. whole-foods, plant-based. you wouldn't be able to keep your weight up if you tried.


has it been a week? it feels like a lifetime.

last saturday:

a disappointing morning, a good lunch and nap and a groggy wakeup

snowstorm!! awesome stuff, coming down apocalyptic

rls on the bus home

a quiet night in the nothing box


when it comes to jokes, timing is everything... so it's unfortunate that this suddenly popped into my head a few months too late:

to all computer geeks, i *do* listen. people kept telling me to go fork myself, so now my girlfriend's pregnant.

last sunday:

a proper start to a sunday, gd's-going-to-be-a-mother's day

"there's no smothering without mother"

tax anxiety, cleaning stress but surprisingly quickly reclaiming a room, landlord disappointment, heavy shopping and a long, fun evening with horseman


revenu quebec and reading lists and krs-one on mainstream hip-hop

slow morning, fluxx flurry, introduction to a new project and google's ingress

system shutdown due to extreme exhaustion 
python studies, shadowrun planning

leaving late, learning that gd's passport WASN'T being processed and they never bothered to inform her when she'd called last week when we would have had time to re-apply without paying the express fee. later, after much suppressed frustration, learning that they *had* bothered to leave voicemail that hadn't been cleared.

a remarkably crap night.


a remarkably crap morning.

calling in sick. resting. passport canada *almost* pleasurable. resting more.


dreaming of weather-controlled arcologies, a pleasant morning and a good start to the workday. my old boss walking a full circuit of the office wearing the custom panties we bought him

an enjoyable and confidence-building end to the day (impressing the guy who built a wickedly smart system by fixing one of its features)

buying the wrong mounting stuff and not being able to put up the mirror, being inspired to work on a new poem, shopping and chilling and going to bed early


a great, early start to the day, the cleaning lady coming in at 8 and us all having a good talk until it was time to leave the women to their thing and get to work

i don't really get how ingress works.

forgotten keycard shame, strategy and bull meetings pride, green team meeting satisfaction

post-lunch investigations, then a long, relaxed afternoon not really making much progress but learning a little along the way

chatting with the guy i'm replacing, discovering that my teammate whose seat i've moved to is an illustrator and arranging a lunch meeting

home, pharmacy, relaxing


bad dreams gone wild: camping and being chased by a tenacious bee only able to defend myself with an unwieldy bag and running for ages, sexually assaulted in bogota and then ripped off by an angry sales clerk

gd's rush-to-work whirlwind, post-tidy loss of all my gear

a slow day with a boring auditing task, cancelled illustrator meeting

cold fingers from ingress training

transferring from 000webhost (who are utterly abhorrent) and spending my evening improving my phone control system, minus a short sugar mission


early up, stabilizing my phone control software

have i been in that starbucks enough that they remember my name? [oh, she simply overheard gd's friend greeting me]

a painful laser treatment, quick shopping + breakfast and chatting with my mum

an afternoon on phone control, with a good nap (with joe rogan live in the background - brilliant) and a visit from horseman and a chat with SxS during which i discovered a huge screw-up with our return flight... our stop in new york? two different airports. %#&$.


dreaming about being bullied and fighting back. dreaming other weird dreams and struggling to get up and talk about them without being sucked back deeper into the rabbit hole.

starting the day with biblical stories.

Saturday, March 14, 2015

summary report: groovy


big shopping

amazing pushap lunch

the my-new-team's-in-trouble meeting

six straight hours of bash-hating

in a rush and urgently using a public toilet while wearing a sweater and jacket, which gd informs me is what women usually experience in winter

geriatric evening at walmart, on both sides of the counter

helping a slow crutchwalker home

gd's delicious dinner, homeless o'clock at the dep

gameloading: rise of the indies is awesome! i'm very glad i backed it ^_^


tough getting out of such a comfortable bed, a good start to the day and then getting hit with a fine for jay-walking right outside the metro. with a little tension from asshole-cop...

how romantic, we each got matching fines...

a good start to the workday, long but productive

is the c++ team manager trying to recruit me too?

discovering that 78% *is* complete when the original estimate is bad

spring thaw: the temperature's risen and it's almost mid-march and i pretty much missed out on the snowboarding season :(

a pleasant start to an utterly shit evening with an old apartment pickup

luxuria superbia is highly addictive, and very, very awkward in terms of how it makes you interact with a device. the sound and the visuals are amazing, worth the money all round.


a great start to a stunning spring day that i enjoyed in spite of myself, scripting level up, judaica mission

leaving later than planned, but discovering that a few of my teammates are neighbours and into wall climbing 

weirdness synchronization, dinner, luxuria superbia and then suddenly crashing


trying to sleep in, battling online, my first day without bandaids since the laser surgery, feeling a good morning on the way to work

good progress (i learned cake), good fluxx, a simple and constructive afternoon, finishing all my tasks and working on a personal project to improve a really dodgy setup

being lectured about overtime by a pregnant teammate who was thrilled to hear about gd and is full of advice

a really nice, chilled evening with exciting news from my mom ^_^

RIP terry pratchett: someone's playing dice with the gods tonight. reading the colour of magic to gd in his memory


an early, but grand morning. the cic dude recognized me and was really cool. taking a long starbucks detour so i could speak to an aerospace recruiter, but he didn't call back so it became an excuse for a very pleasant walk before work.

my manager's so excited and impressed by my performance that he really doesn't want me to try for his other team! and i'm enjoying myself too :)

so it's official, i'm now an "infrastructure developer"

a great afternoon, connecting with the gamers from our QA team, finishing strong and leaving early while the sun was still up!

apartment cleansing with mezuzot and candlelighting and vfmp's housewarming gift of carcassonne's winter edition, which CAN be treated as an expansion pack, even if doing so for only two people was a bit ambitious

today so far:

a short night but a good rest, gd waking up a little before me for pre-snowboard coffee. leaving late but still not too bad considering how much nearee we live to the metro now

*a heart filled with gratitude*

not a bad rest on the bus, taking my time for coffee before hitting the slopes and being floored by some of the feature articles in wired's "sex in the digital age"

ice and powder, a little awkward at first but feeling smoother as the morning progressed

Monday, March 09, 2015


i mentioned the wankband recently, but what was really weird was seeing this under the "related" section... could the connection be stronger than mere genre?

from realistic cartoon characters to cartoon characters as humans, this artwork is gorgeous!

security experts want you to know this stuff. it's a good idea.

now, for a different kind of security: an analysis of the 2014 gaza action.

a lot of take-out


a long, emotional day but filled with interesting challenges. joining the new team for drinks (but without either of my managers), great fun! awkward goodbyes to a thankfully not-awkward team

p.m. mission. back home with a sulk to receive a bloody good talking to.


a long night, forgotten dreams, difficulty waking up, johnny macrae's love your weird making my morning

a long, tough day with some light at the end of the ten-hour mark; awkward but satisfying team farewell  lunch and forgetting my thawing lunch in the fridge when i left for the weekend :/

walmart running out of doorstops and it taking me three sections to find someone to confirm it

a relaxed evening, getting to bed early 


waking up early too to go shopping for stuff that nobody sells any more and to learn how simple bank transfers don't work in canada. getting a full box of the wrong protein bars - i HATE dates! - and needing a rest before returning to sort out the old apartment 

the very friendly but disturbing woman who thought she recognized me (i was wearing my ski mask)

washing machine with hot and cold switched and weight training with a bloody heavy box of goods
getting the heating switch confused and slowly cranking it up because i was suffering from it being too high

i was about to take a nap when i heard... water dripping from the bathroom ceiling. or, after speaking to the neighbours, what i *hoped* was water.

storming around until the landlord finally responded and gd got home, a busy but good evening and an early night


waking up early in anticipation of the cleaning lady coming in (but daylight savings change, so really early). thought for international women's day: "we're celebrating by cleaning our apartment. i'm kinda helping"

a furiously energetic clean and tidy, good music and good vibes and a habitable apartment.

exhaustion, sling blade, the maroon 5 lighter and a great night's sleep.

Thursday, March 05, 2015

a painful move and a long week


copper branch with vfmp, shake powder run and coffee - dizzy and tired and an uncomfortable moment of tacitly agreeing to leave an understanding unsaid

feeling like shit, lying down and then greeting gd with a difficult conversation that resolved a few important issues

an evening of packing and self care. and freaking out about not having packed in time, and a rushed, highly successful mission to steal a fat stack of newspapers from the metro


early up to move
vacuum weight training , -15 and overheating 
a knot of cables
indoor slush, frantic confusion, a nightmare whirlwind of good spirits, scrapes and bruises, hormonal stress and a neighbour antagonizing gd's 6'11" brother and his hired hand who're serious brawlers

i'm quite pleased with myself for the kind of shit i can carry

desperately needing the pizza and a proper break... the BEST nap but very short. returning with gd for the bathroom, then returning alone a few more times.

the mind-bogglingly bad decisions gd's brother made while helping us pack (not only did we start too late but our old apartment is so small that we ran out of space after three boxes)

the curious incident of the shelf foot lost in the snow in the nighttime - calling gd to help me identify a possible match, giving up and the finding it two meters further on.


after almost 18 straight hours of physically demanding effort and high stress (not including the previous night's frantic last-minute newspaper stack stealing and packing), i was surprised to put myself to bed in our new bedroom around 1.30am feeling exhausted, but otherwise pretty darned good.

i got up six hours later in the body of a geriatric. with little strength, a sore everything and a slight shake. just in time to meet my new team at work. happy monday!


finishing why men don't listen and women can't read maps, which should be updated and then be set as mandatory reading in every junior high / high school on the planet

a buyer for my bluetooth keyboard, a super-awkward interview with two potential managers vying for me

finishing minimum requirements, being kicked out early, a walmart run in gorgeous post-snowglobe weather, a bookshelf purchase and urgent pizza and a nap so great i woke up stoned

quick shopping (a successful draino experience), and being overwhelmed by the amount of crazy shit in my news feed, from the horrific photos of the fire in cape town to ISIS pulling off a real-life titus andronicus moment by feeding a hostage to his mother, from a weasel on the back of a flying woodpecker to a man freaking out and attacking his whole office...

facebook survey irony


fresnaye dreams, back in the house i grew up in; my uncle cooking and his guest leaving the toilet in a sickening state, k-twang around but we're avoiding each other and then meeting a strange family on a lawn where our backyard used to be.
getting on a shuttle flight with a torn ticket, huddled in a small cabin. wire's in front, hands me a giant sketch book he's been scribbling in and invites me to collaborate - i complete a crappy but readable comic strip and then learn that the book belongs to the girl next to him and she didn't authorize anyone touching it, she's mortified and the rest of the cabin (including my team's QA guy, though his eyes are tiny green emeralds set inches deep into his face) jump on me. i wake up moments before my alarm goes off.

there's a 24 hour stompie hotline, cape town? use it!

i love our shower, i don't love that we're not yet ready to make breakfast but gd's got friends coming to help out today [or not]. stepping out into a brilliant sunny morning still yawning but looking forward to the day.

back to bash scripting, and then delving deep into apache territory. it looks like at least half of my new position is going to be fun and challenging and not at all what i signed up for

an evening of shopping, simmering, step-by-step unpacking


going to bed in a blackout, jumbled dreams, cracking open the window to combat the extreme dryness

DAMN. i've never been so relieved to see so many status updates about rain before... i pray it's enough! [it wasn't]


some morning frustrations, but a great start to the workday. presenting our manager with his "beloved tyrant" shirt in front of the boss (for whom we had nothing) was pretty awkward. even more so when he said "*i* didn't get a shirt", so now we're ordering him a personalized thong.

a long, tough afternoon chasing my tail and growing more and more tired by the minute 

1. lessons from why men don't listen and women can't read maps might have been absorbed mentally but they're not so easily put into practice
2. purim sameach: reading bible stories to gd
3. titan ae

and passing out early, in spite of really bad rls


waking up to brush teeth, then flop back down into long, strange dreams

no need to rush every morning

half moving desks