restless

i just got up from a night of unbelievably bad restless leg syndrome aches and pains (neither tonic water nor gatorade helped) which kept me awake and miserable after a day of serious headaches that i believe can be assigned to a hayfever / sinusitis crossover that's in the works. i'm pretty sure that that's what made my vision go all wonky for a while yesterday, either that or far too much time focusing on digital screens is making my eyes strain to look further than two metres. not good.

i think i'm going to hit the gym now, i suspect my body might be upset with me for missing so many days...

---dinner last night was delicious, and most of it was pleasant and interesting, but some of it was overshadowed by yang being his father. i've re-arrived at the conclusion that he's really not smart, he is possessed of zero self-awareness and he continues to speak thoughtlessly even after it should be clear that what he's saying is entirely inappropriate and uninteresting. or offensive: there was an admission he made about killing a hawk that made me want to attack him (verbally), but it wasn't the right time to be getting myself thrown out of the house for pointing out what a terrible human being he can be.

there was a moment when one of the others made a comment about our experiencing his stream-of-consciousness and what followed was about two minutes of absolute silence that was so awkward that it bore a sense of purity to it; we could all tell that we were all feeling uncomfortable, nobody had anything to say because we were all thinking about how we were feeling.

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oh! and some of godmother's friends were helpfully discussing who they could fix me up with. it was decided that my age, ability to hold a good job and my apartment are in my favour but that not owning a car might be an issue, and there was this amusing "huh?" moment when i explained that i'm not interested in anyone who be concerned with any of those measurements...