ugly brain

both times that i went to the gym today i felt horrible; completely drained and unable to get it together to focus properly on what was being demonstrated or said. kind of like that moment before passing out, only continuous.

when i called it a day (about ten minutes after arriving at the afternoon session) i came back to rest. i've been lying (comfortably) on the couch, alternating between sleep and just lying with my head feeling like it's been flooded with used frying oil and my mind reeling, playing through still images from the past few days in a disquietingly random order.

i don't know how i feel but it's not good.