one track mind

dinner last night was informal: we did the barest minimum (according to rabban gamliel) of the passover seder, and the rest was eating too much and non-stop talking until it was quite late.

i was too tired to do anything but sleep when we got home. i vaguely recall doing something online before hitting the bed, but it all seems a bit of a dream.

this morning i woke up later than i'm used to (hooray!), and after a cup of coffee i went for a run. i extended my route, going off-road when i realized that there was shade just metres away from the path, and wore myself out a fair distance from my starting point: i managed 12km before walking the rest of the way home, and while my legs are hurting i'm feeling rather good about myself. primarily because it was exhaustion that stopped me, and not any muscular discomfort :)

i ate a good breakfast with pg before she left (she'll be back on monday), produced the reports that needed producing (while simultaneously trying to figure out how to upgrade my sql enterprise manager - thank you microsoft for not simply posting useful links somewhere) and then had another snack before crashing.

from the moment i put down the magazine (i'm finally on january's wired) until getting up a few minutes ago, i've been able to consider nothing except for the reporting problem. it's an enormous issue and very complex, and all i want to do is relax after a long week by not thinking about it.

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i believe in god, so i don't need a religion. what i do need is to read more articles like an atheist view on faith.

[first response] you either accept evidence of god in history, and join one of the religions which document this as "history" or stop believing in god and accept it as a made-up thing. religious fragmenation makes it really hard to argue atheism...

psychology isn't as simple as that. i believe in god, but i'm aware that my god is not an external fact of everyone's reality. you're giving me an ultimatum: "either believe or don't believe", and that's exactly the wrong attitude, because you assume that in order to believe you must accept historical notions of deity that are primitive and harmful.

believe what you want, how you want, be a good person and leave everyone else's minds to themselves. my god isn't an entity that tells me that it needs everyone else's permission and confirmation. my god is very happy with just me. if you want to make god happy, then go mishnah on him: "who is rich? he who is happy with his lot."