financial difficulty is distracting

i couldn't focus on reading on the bus, because the following was turning around in my head:
we're all swimming in the same pool, and we've gotten so used to people pissing in it that it's become expected behavior. i want to swim, i'm a great swimmer but i don't want to swim in urine, so i'm stuck on the diving board. everyone in the pool looks up at me knowingly, sympathetically - but they've all gotten used to the reality of yellow water and that momentary pleasurable warmth when relieving themselves.