Wednesday, April 29, 2009
now i'm absolutely exhausted. it doesn't help that it's taken me more than half an hour to figure out how to upload a torrent, but upload i have!
it's only taken me 51 weeks.
i'm going to sleep so well now ^_^
that's what happens in these parts.
i'm completely exhausted, just got back from a shower at the old apartment and am definitely going to sleep well.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
i keep forgetting just how much exercise i'm getting moving all my stuff. it's constant weight training between all the unpacking and sorting, and i'm beat. i just passed out for an hour, but i'm not sure that that's enough to hold me for a night of serious partying...
and party we shall ;)
i couldn't help myself [find my comment]: wired's article on the guidestones forced my hand. i'm now a big fan of the commissioners, and convinced that it's a large group of enlightened individuals who are *gasp* trying to do some good.
obviously, when they eventually arrived at 7.35pm i was pleased. i'll be fair, the guy almost seemed apologetic, they were quite efficient and it wasn't their fault that the larger of the sofas won't get through the door - still, i think it was unreasonable to have the two arabs pushing me for a tip afterwards, especially when the cost of the move was CLEARLY a lot higher than it should have been. and the nasty girl i spoke to on the phone was trying desperately to wheedle ever last cent out of me because she caught a whiff of my accent.
a real class act. unfortunately, no worse than the others.
at least i got stuff done in the afternoon - two sabuda pop-ups and a new toilet, umm, thing (the top bit what flushes) and i had time to vacuum the bedroom i've vacated. once the movers were gone, i fiddled a bit and then went to the ceremony, running into a dutch friend and a couple of the ski-trip girls. it was i good ceremony, but long and we're all complaining of sore feet.
so now i have to find a buyer for the big couch, i'm on my last transport mission for the night and i have no pc until tomorrow.
at least i'm sleeping under my own roof!
Monday, April 27, 2009
is it all about attitude? i think so. is it a pity that i've been caring so much for so long? definitely.
can't go back. time to move on.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
the ceremony for the base's fallen soldiers was pretty and the singers were fantastic, and the pre-ceremony dinner's laughter was raucous and spiritually cleansing: or at least it would have been if it hadn't been us laughing about "wear your boss to work" day...
i've organized the primary move to take place tomorrow, and i have to admit to a *NEED* to be there already. and the washing machine and fridge will follow me on friday :)
i think i'm getting the current situation through my head. now for some sleep! before i wake up again at stupid o'clock!
Saturday, April 25, 2009
i'm now going to have another shower (it's not the moving so much as the pre-move dusting), and then hit the sack for another glorious early morning in uniform.
i've been thinking that there's very little hopeful that i've been writing about, and maybe that'll be a part of the change i feel coming. as i sat with one of ze germans this evening, we discussed that - it's a period of transition for a lot of us right now. let's see which way the wind blows.
i'm almost back to normal, if a bit tired, and i've been doing a bit of moving (item by item sort of thing). i would've showered there if i had a towel-rail installed :P
got a bit of fire back in me after watching some of the woodstock documentary's director's cut - i don't know if it's different from the other version, but seeing that many happy people always brightens things a bit.
entity of the state
from being an entity of the state
all porcelain, shading my true fate
becoming an enemy of that self-same state
a sludged-concrete vassal, to direct its hate
from years of keeping still and sighing
aeons hiding my sanity
i've come out and shot myself
i'll pay now for my vanity
i'm drawn like a fly
into their grey feast
they let me eat myself alive
they wait and watch
with eyes gleaming like ice
to be hung up, torn up, and drunk
by the mad, blind beast
i don't quite feel like smiling
not right now, not today
neither do i feel like rhyming
i just gave my whole world away
all was bright, now no longer shining
my whole new soul sold out and iced
my head deep down into the fray
signing off on my decline
wasting a decade sacrificed
deep in desperate hour of ire
and all because i could refuse
to keep my promise to myself
to be honest and remain a liar
the shelf fit, and the shower installation went more or less successfully - i should be able to use it within the next few hours, and now i'm fretting over getting the rest of the move completed.
in the meanwhile, i'm not completely healthy yet so i'm going back to bed.
Friday, April 24, 2009
i did get up in the evening, to go to the pad and wait for the builder to bring over the counter-top, and i've just got up now to go to the hardware store to pick up a shelf and then deal with the shower installation.
i should be happy about these things, but i'm worrying instead. it's not helping.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
i spent a couple of hours with the city council this morning compiling a formal request for a building permit. i understand less than half of what i managed to read, but fortunately the assigned engineer and the cute russian girl at the info desk formed a helpful team.
requesting a building permit is expensive.
i had the presence of mind to go to the city officer and seek medical attention, at least. i'm back home with a sick day, and about to crash.
either i was sick, which would explain my completely screwed up and confused reaction, or i've actually managed to worry myself sick in the aftermath.regardless of which, i've most definitely lost my appetite and everything i've done today was as if through a hazy wall of stress.
i'm surprisingly good at dealing with that, strangely.
after coming home and consulting with an oracle, i went out for dinner with a few section-mates which turned out really nice, although it's always awkward seeing bt's boyfriend (singer's love) and he works at the restaurant where we sat.
back to the concert: best closing song ever (using a bullhorn), they played the thank you's, maya playing the cello like a guitar, mind-blowing psychedelic sounds, and all-round good fun. oh, yeah, and a really interesting outfit :)
back to reality: going to shower and hopefully sleep before fighting with the city council over building permits. and try to get the poem that attacked me on my way in to sit still so i can write it down.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
and disappointment in myself. phenomenal.
i cannot explain, not even to myself, how i did something so pathetically stupid - all i know is that i've changed the game i'm playing dramatically.
i'm actually having difficulty breathing. i'll deal with whatever comes my way, but i really could've played my cards better than i did.
i do feel that my clock is ticking.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
vin diesel tied to a chair in a sealed plexiglass cube, with the dm able to safely run the game without fear of [immediate] reprisal.
of course it's possible to take it to a more physical level with someone that tough: when vin's character encounters rats, rats are tipped into the cube - same with water, receiving lashes, that sort of thing.
i think having him join acquisitions incorporated would be neat.
i took a couple of battery cells to be disposed of this morning, and in my other hand was carrying one working one for the clock at the pad. i managed to lose that working one at some point on my 150m journey. suck.
nystire was on an honesty mission today, so when he forgot something and reminded me later, he harrassed me until i agreed to send an update to our SC and project manager informing them that he'd made a boo-boo. right after that, i got a phone call inviting me to undergo the polygraph test tomorrow instead of in a couple of weeks' time. i jumped at the chance :)
i tried organizing the shower again, and as soon as i got irritated (same woman from yesterday) she got helpful, so apparently they're coming to install it on friday. then i finally got hold of the guys responsible for delivering my fridge and washing machine: as she started telling me that they "ran out of the model i ordered and would replace it with" i got aggressive, but once she stopped me she explained that that means an upgrade, same product with slightly better specs. i'll have to deal with it.
the old, giant project came back to bite me in the arse twice today, apparently we haven't heard the end of it :S
we got to discussing my personal childbearing project over the first cup of coffee this morning, and although hilarity ensued there was a general consensus that it's a valid direction to take even if instituting something so radical is fantastically complex. and politically incorrect, but necessary none the less.
i managed the day on less coffee! i did buy marshmallows, but that doesn't count, does it? and i still have plenty of peanut butter left ^_^
sign language: i brought a transrater to help me explain what i need from the sign guy. even he got irritated, and that frustration was nothing compared to watching the man trying to count to 15. that took over a minute - i kid you not. eventually we were on the same wavelength, and when i finally got hold of the others to make a final decision they confused the issue and tomorrow we're going to have to start over O_o
i tried to get hold of another copy of robert sabuda - alice's adventures in wonderland but they're all sold out. as in, i can't even order off his website any more. damn.
i've just made a big move - all my serious military gear - and fairly soon the heavy lifting will be done! wheeeee!
elizabeth gilbert: a different way to think about creative genius is along the same lines of the stuff i'm reading in james hillman - re-visioning psychology, and it was a pleasure to watch.
Monday, April 20, 2009
it's done in the 40's style, about a loser therapist who has a crisis of conscience after years of "treating" patients, but instead of helping them get well he's been deliberately making sure that they'll keep coming back by playing on their neuroses.
i hope he likes the idea, if not - it was fun to think about it :)
i spent a long time on the phone with the city council today, trying to figure out how one verifies the legality of one's roof. every person i spoke to knew exactly who to pass me on to, and i learned all manner of useless things before finally getting through to the guy on the swing in the first room, who refused to help me.
and all this transpired with the background tones of a woman informing me that i've reached the people who are going to do their utmost to provide the very best service imaginable.
eventually, i made an appointment with an arbitrary segment of the chain in the hope that personally torturing myself by hopping physically from office to office will prove more fruitful.
it certainly can't prove less...
i suffered from carcolepsy this morning, and was drowsy until lunchtime. the only reason that my situation improved was because i had another energy drink after my second cup of coffee. this is getting out of hand.
i finally had the talk with the unit commander, he was completely understanding and had even remembered what we talked about a few months ago. i'm impressed, and i'm not signing.
i was inspired today to consider taking university courses next academic year. random, fun ones.
it's now holocaust memorial day... not a fun one.
electric sheep: i can totally identify with the sentiment
from nystire: i'd want a couple of these
Sunday, April 19, 2009
* when i first sampled a few songs off the album, i was horrified by the tinny drum sound. it still bothers me enough that i won't listen to any of it.
i think my standards need to come down a little.
naaah. i just need to get back to the real world.
this morning was rough, and got rougher as the day stretched on. i was broken. after lunch i felt even worse, and i tried closing my eyes for a bit but i started feeling faint... ugly, painful, and people around me still expected me to participate. after an energy drink (kosher for passover, and for some reason tasted that way: everything tasted funny today), i began the slow ascent to functional and by the end of the day had actually done some work.
i slept a bit more on the shuttle home, stopped by the hardware store to pick up nails and headed to the pad to hang pictures. on the way i ran into an old friend from my first base, and i could actually offer the man coffee (! ^_^ !) and we chatted until the person he was supposed to meet rocked up. then i continued with the hanging: aside from stabbing myself while extracting a misplaced nail and then accidentally smearing blood on the wall (good stuff i had the paint ready!), i managed a fairly decent job of the smaller items and the overall effect is phenomenal!
i'm really pleased ^_^
now i'm going to shower and hit the hay early. i'm buggered.
i not only waited for almost an hour to be first in line (meeting a very cute girl and amazing her with my minicards) but i actually managed to make ma'ayan hirshbein's show too! i only caught about half an hour, but it was incredible - really dark and beautiful, and both she and the guy who was supporting her (i don't know what the instrument is called) are terrifically talented and fun to watch ^_^
i didn't really enjoy the videos of her, but from her live performance i'm sold!
then i walked back to the barbie to see red band live: surreal and hysterically funny, these guys are mind-blowing! i'm really glad that i got to see them perform, as it was their last show. their covers of white rabbit and the boxer were particularly inspiring.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
i added a bit more to my canvas, replaced the buzzer's name-tag with my personal logo, and my pad is looking brilliant! i've even sorted out my media, and almost all the books are across. it's kinda weird: i've been saying for ages that i don't have enough space, and now that everything's laid out i can see why!
oh, well. i'm going to just start moving across anyway :/
my feet and legs are killing me, it was so hot inside that i was sure i was going to faint. i'm definitely going to bed soon... just as soon as i finish the bag of crisps while massaging my feet on the old server on the floor :P
Friday, April 17, 2009
on the way back home i sat down with lake and her very pretty friend for a few minutes - she's got a speech in store for me but it wasn't the right time. i told her to morse me when she's ready.
i'm hitting the shower - i'm all dusty and sore - and then heading off to hear a beatles cover band.
but i wasn't really disappointed. i put together the drawers first - which *are* strong enough to handle my weight, and then came here to coffeeholic for breakfast before heading out to try and catch up with yael deckelbaum as she meanders around tel aviv.
i really enjoyed the sushi earlier, i met a nice girl who could be replacing me, and went to a celebration that involved rather a lot of alcohol. songbird and a friend of hers gave me a ride home, stopping on the way for sushi... like i'd say no.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
the only thing that sucks: there's apparently a 99% chance that i'll receive my items tonight or tomorrow... but if i don't they'll just return it and i'll have to come and do the whole thing again.
i'm very proud of myself - while half asleep, i spoke to the builder and sorted almost everything out (i *just* remembered that i forgot to discuss replacing the asbestos). he's even willing to install the kitchen counter of an evening, which makes life much easier :)
as for our team, those of us who pitched had a great time laughing and shouting about the course - and driving the waitress crazy was an added bonus :)
earlier: mmf and his wife weren't home, so i made a few missions transporting discs and things to the new pad and made a list of furniture off the ikea website that i'm planning on going to go buy tomorrow.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
i picked up a beer on the way home, and sat sipping it while watching the first part of metallica - some kind of monster: what a sad story :/ [like, sad as in "pathetic"]
something reminded me to rip my yael deckelbaum disc, i haven't even listened to it since i bought it - and now i'm off to wake up mmf and browse the ikea catalogue.
* spraypainting the vice-principal's car
* bogwashing the gangster (and fighting in general)
* my favourite math teacher (who everyone thought i was sleeping with)
* being dressed up as a nazi to test the costume's effectiveness for the school play
* opening the firehose on everyone leaving an assembly
that was an interesting year :P
i've been informed across the board that the quote i got yesterday is completely off the wall, and it looks like i'll be joining mmf and his wife in a shopping trip to ikea soon :)
we visited ze germans, and had an awkward moment: i'm not bothered by friends' saliva. i'm not talking about cups of it, i'm talking about consuming something that's been licked. maybe it's my hippie background, maybe it's the military background, but i don't worry about other people's germs unless i have good reason to. is that really so weird?
a few of us congregated at yogi's for poker - yes, i promised i wouldn't try anymore. but i seem to have gotten myself more or less together, and not only did i cover two buy-ins, but i walked away with NIS 130 on top of them. and that was after throwing away five or six HUGE hands that i really should have taken but was playing too tight to chance.
i'm very proud of myself.
mmf, his wife, grootbek and i came back to tel aviv together and shared a cab home, and i'm now about to crash: i hope i have enough energy for frisbee in the morning, because i'm exhausted right now.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
i went easle shopping after posting yesterday, stopping outside the strip mall to talk to my mum about all sorts of serious things. i was surprised to hear news of my younger sister, who - as it turns out - *is* still alive, and i'm sorry to say is still making a good case of what a greedy idiot our brother is**.
i carried home the easle (feeling mighty good about finding one for a fifth of the price of the ones at my favourite art store), checked my mail and found the quote from the builder for all the cupboards: i was absolutely blown away. i hadn't even been thinking in the same ballpark, the numbers were just completely outside of my current budget. i won't lie, that upset me and my plans very much.
i heard that ru55 was coming past tel aviv and going shopping, so i packed quickly and hopped off to meet him. after eating with SxS and his cousin, we went to home centre, where i disappointedly decided on a temporary storage solution which i'll buy when i get back home.
we rejoined SxS and his cousin and missioned off to watch the sunset from the cliffs in herzeliya - we missed the event itself but we enjoyed a very pretty and peaceful twilight.
it was one of those evenings, spent contemplating our last stand as a species and feeling sad that we all tie ourselves up with the day to day grind or relatively petty problems that we can't ignore, but that distract from a much bigger purpose.
it's depressing to think about how the human world works, because it doesn't. we're ruining ourselves because we simply don't know any better, because "it's in our nature", and i can't help but liken that (possibly completely unfairly) to a state wherein most of the people on the planet can see the end coming and can do nothing but wait, either for our surprise salvation or our demise.
but god helps those who help themselves.
i cannot comprehend how all my friends manage to dedicate so much time to the wii, improving their mario karting to such a ridiculous extent! i've missed out on something huge gaming-wise, but that's a choice that i made. i find it interesting that i've become so non-competitive in general the last few years, almost like i've got nothing i need to prove. i wonder if that's not an unhealthy state to be in.
we spent a couple of hours milling about ra'anana, talking shop and the future and discovering new parks (this city is practically one giant park), and then returned to call it a night.
i suffer from a lack of perspective. a really stupid lack for someone who's mostly living the good life (time at work not included) and hasn't got a lot to worry about for the near-future.
it suddenly dawned on me that my constant stress and agitation derives primarily from my attitude that the world should meet my expectations, that those expectations (of myself included) are always unrealistically high, and that it's extremely likely that this is learned behaviour from both my father (attitude: i suddenly remembered his eulogy that his elder brother gave about his expectations) and my mother (achievement: having it impressed upon me that anything is indeed possible***).
i wondered if that's a manifesting symptom (like literalism, ocd, social disorder, anxiety) of asperger's syndrome, and at some point (like, when i'm released from service) i'm going to have to be properly evaluated just to satisfy my curiosity.
i slept until 2.30pm, and i'm counting that as an achievement.
* those cupcakes are STILL great, and it suddenly occurred to me that they need to be made available as facebook gifts.
** she needs financial aid, our brother schemed his way into full control of the inheritance and she's being taken care of almost as little as the rest of us.
*** and i'm right now wearing a shirt that states "everything is possible". funny, that.
Monday, April 13, 2009
now i've been in front of the monitor for way too long, so i'm going shopping.
i have placed the order for the shower. apparently the price i paid for the floor wasn't so steep after all.
i wonder how the interviewing of potential flatmate replacements went. i'm very glad i remembered to clean up just before i left.
i had to make a list of kosher restaurants in tel aviv for someone, and it's a very short list. this is one of the reasons i live here :)
for the past week or so i've been irked by a really shoddy tagging of an electricity box on my new street: it's a badly-drawn penis. i was planning on spraying over it tonight: converting it to an alien, or a dinosaur, or at the very least a well-drawn penis, but at 2.15am there were simply too many neighbours sitting around on balconies and chatting.
kosher for passover sandwiches - not bad, but the "bread" sucked. independance day was great; mario kart went better than usual.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
unrelated, i think maybe i should find a way to somehow derive enjoyment from the highly-stressed state in which i more often than not find myself. like, maybe i need to just accept that state of wild anxiety as "normal" for me.
the day began very relaxed, until i decided to take on the weight training of carrying most of my books over to my pad in a single box: my arms are still hurting. i'm now sitting in dizengof center waiting for my poster to be mounted, and then i'm going to leave this monsterous mass of mall people and try to calm down.
and the news on the shower front is that i'm going to have to deal with an 80x80 shower. oh, well.
advice: be more human
my favourite dilbert: green clothing
legal downloading boom in sweden
so i'm caught up on comics, and i'm ready for breakfast because i have nothing else to do. at least, nothing else that i have to do right now :)
from a note on questionable content i downloaded röyksopp - junior: an extremely cool and fun album!
aside from spring cleaning my playlist and trashing a lot of good music that i just don't listen to, i watched the pilot episode of the sarah connor chronicles and passed out listening to streamed ambient, which was louder than i realized and i missed a message that would've enabled me to actually get out of bed.
instead, i'm awake at 3.33am.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
i mean, i'll move stuff anyway, but there's definitely no rush.
i'm glad to see that the paint job i did yesterday is good. big decision for the next few days: to mount or frame my penny arcade poster.
i love the idea of random, anonymous chatting, but i won't be participating.
peevs: i didn't see this coming.
i'm listening right now to godspeed you black emperor! - F♯A♯∞, and it is mind-blowing.
i'm taking a slow, picturesque walk home, snapping photos of arbitrary things and discovering that some israelis *do* abuse their sports cars - even the cops have packed up and gone home by now.
Friday, April 10, 2009
i arrived at the apartment at 8.30, ready to go, but it took the guys until 11.15 to finally arrive. they brought in all the gear (heavy gear), and began... and then stopped. there's a problem with the height of the shower base, the floor's got a slight gradient and they wouldn't be doing me any favours by doing a half a job.
so sunday i'll get a full quote for a complete job, and if i'm not happy i'll just have to go with 80x80 instead of 85x90 (turns out that 90cm in one of the directions is simply not possible - bummer).
the kitchen cupboard is a loss, and i'm actually glad that we caught it falling down because it shouldn't have been up there in the first place - i'm being taught the basics of all these professions now, and the only good solution is to add another counter across from the existing one. in short, my kitchen's going to look different, but i'll have a surface for my gas plate and things will be tidier.
the asbestos roof wasn't removed either; the builder's friend is more up-to-date than he is and we require municipal authorization.
we discussed all the storage possibilities - they both liked my pyramid bookshelf solution, and the bookshelf room separation.
i feel horrible about having been ripped off by the guy who came to lay the floors.
the breakfast corner is going to be awesome. mmf's wife's suggestion was inspired!
so after much talking and measuring, and laughter, i did some quick weekend shopping and am now going to spend some time with the gimp. then i'll probably take a nap. i like holidays, and i'm feeling a little bit better.
i spent a large part of the day sleeping, and would've slept even more were it not for the incentive of frisbee with the gang and some of the most delicious cake i've ever tasted.
i suffered from crazy nightmares about the course i did last year :(
i tried reading some more of james hillman - re-visioning psychology but every read of the same few sentences got me drifting off into daydreams.
oh, and ilovecupcakes cupcakes are fantastic!
we went with yogi to ramat hasharon, where i played with the bunny. they have a bunny! after a bit of consideration, i wouldn't take one as a pet. it's not fair to leave an animal alone in a cage all day.
i finished watching the battlestar galactica miniseries (for the second time, i couldn't remember it at all) and i've been frustrated by facebook's repeated "upload failed" only after processing the last photo, and am about to crash in preparation for tomorrow's excitement: the shower base is being installed!
Thursday, April 09, 2009
after such a busy and successful day yesterday, i caught the bus with the worst suspension i've ever experienced (admittedly, this was brought to my attention by the poor cupcakes that were being battered around [oh, no!]) to ra'anana.
the passover meal was magnificent, and the ceremonial bits were fun and didn't take too long (without shortcuts!), but the combination of too much good food and sinus troubles took me to bed instead of going out with SxS and ru55 to visit ze germans.
at 6am my alarm brought me out of my dreamy reverie in abject terror, i'd forgotten to disable it for the holidays and it's effective as hell (chris tucker's "ZZZZZ!" from the fifth element) :S
now i'm going back to sleep, a little concerned about a sinus headache but more exhausted than anything else: and SO glad to be on holiday!
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
from there i walked to allenby to see if i could find oversized, decorative hippie-style patterns to use as curtains: i was all over the place until eventually i had to get the bus, and right next to the station (i'd walked past it on the other side of the road) was just the place i was looking for.
i didn't have time to actually buy them, i hopped aboard and met up with that girl that shadowslight's mum was hyping (we ran into her and her boyfriend a couple of weeks ago) for a cup of coffee after she was so kind to deliver kosher-for-passover cupcakes ^_^
i dropped off the cupcakes at home, then walked back again to pick up the poster and a guitar stand and bus them back to my apartment. the poster looks so good now that it's finally, years later, framed.
i bought a bottle of rum and some glasses, did some shopping (running into spot's mom on the way - that was a bit awkward. no, make that a lot awkward), and have been playing with fonts and the gimp in a sad attempt to get the sign for my door sorted out. that's gonna take a while.
and now i'm off to ra'anana: happy passover! חג שמח!
lake is ignoring me. i'm disappointed.
the post office has a very interesting method of verification: i handed them a whole bunch of envelopes telling them that they weren't for us, and now they've sent them all back to me to have me indicate that the mail really doesn't belong to me.
now waiting for cupcake delivery.
my old boss called me, we haven't spoken in so long he didn't know that i've left the worst period of my life behind
pop-up alice's adventures in wonderland: i brought it into the office for show-and-tell, and after being sniggered at for my childishness i opened it up and wowed almost everyone. some of the idiots were adamant that it's for children, i'm certain that they're going to remain losers for the rest of their meaningless lives.
shreddings: i asked if the shreddings are recycled (after we had to lug many bags, half of which split because stuffing thin plastic with heavy things always seems like such a good idea) and discovered that nobody knows... and nobody cares. i'm trying to pursue further enquiry, but i'm feeling rather alone.
excel: excelled. i've automated a whole bunch of interesting conversions and i'm hoping for a chance to automate the entire process that's being translated before i have to begin the huge workload that was offloaded on me at the end of the day.
talk to convince: i've been invited to a friendly
still feeling that loneliness.
poster shock x2
i hurriedly carried off my giant poster of cape town to the framers, and discovered that i'd confused two shops and had forgotten to set a reminder that i can only go in the morning. on my way back, i stopped at coffeeholic (the guy working was shocked to see me in uniform, he doesn't understand how i can be so cool and have signed on) for a parisian beef croissant (inspired!) and a half an hour browsing the paper over coffee (nothing interesting, we've run out of water and nobody cares - and our ministers are completely unqualified as usual) while constantly reminding myself not to leave the poster behind.
the weirdest thing, i just noticed that when i pull open my front door from the inside, the door to the patio shakes. i don't know if that's anything to worry about.
it was 8.14pm, and i'd just begun typing up this post when i wrote the word "poster" and suddenly realized that i couldn't recall taking the poster from the coffee stand :/
after much cursing, laughing, and wondering at my friendly flatmate's complete lack of verbal skills (i explained what i was laughing about, and she gazed at me blankly and drawled "poster?"), i frantically retraced my steps.
i'm very glad that i stopped by my apartment first, because i'd carried it there on autopilot. on the plus side of things, i ran into my neighbour (the one whose performance i missed on friday) outside and went to his apartment to chat and be introduced to phenomenal music (i've borrowed quite a lot: poet and the roots - dread beat an'blood, the afghan whigs - black love, leftfield - leftism, morphine - the night, the afghan whigs - gentlemen, jeff buckley - grace, ben harper - the will to live, godspeed you black emperor! - F♯A♯∞).
while there, i received a phone-call from my previous TL: just before he left today, he came past my desk with cash in hand to inform me that he was buying the book off me for his daughters. he called to tell me that they were all in a state of wonderment and ecstasy, and that totally made my day ^_^
i've showered, and hung out my laundry... i think i'm going to go to bed soon. this stuffiness is tiring.
Monday, April 06, 2009
this morning's episode had me weary, i haven't been able to breathe comfortably and it was going to be a long day at work. i learned excel functions today.
i bought acceptable speakers for the new apartment (until i'm ready to move my current setup), the sound is good and i've been outside to check and could barely hear anything ^_^
i know where i can get posters framed close to home, i've made a bunch of important purchases (like a bucket, and thick, comfy bathroom carpets) and even painted a little.
i also got my watch battery replaced, that was something that's been in the pipeline a long time.
the current internal debate is whether to crash immediately or watch something first.
this take on master of orion is great, link provided by three panel soul: and this questionable content is a cute tribute.
i wish i knew what woke me at 3am, i couldn't get back to sleep afterwards :(
Sunday, April 05, 2009
i met up with SxS and ru55 for coffee, and we then paid mmf and his wife a visit, which is where i was introduced to the fake drama of the not-very-glitterati. pathetic.
i was happening trouble breathing, so i came home to crash - i bought some goodies for my pad, so i moved them over along with the first of the big posters (bladerunner), and am now definitely ready for bed.
yet another reminder of my not leaving too soon - bad timing over water-usage, horrible shared net access, and random things are falling apart. it's like this apartment wants me to get the hell out of here. and i'm not putting up a fight.
i mean, some of it was okay, but an hour of squicking from one of the guys from my desert team and barely being able to breathe didn't make it fun. high-milk-content chocolate nougat and cake was worth compiling the health issues, though.
i've bought hand-towels and a kettle for my new pad, and have just come back from acquiring bright acrylic colours and a spare brush. and yael deckelbaum's album ^_^
i called up lake to thank her for the invitation and let her know that i'll be spending passover with SxS, and she threw me a telephonic ball-breaker that led to a really uncomfortable conversation. i guess she's a lot deeper into us than i am :/
Saturday, April 04, 2009
SxS and i had brunch / dinner with karnaf, and then SxS, ru55, mmf and his wife came to see my apartment - all impressed, with a number of interesting suggestions :)
my neck is buggered from the frisbee, and i'm concerned about being sick. i just came home to shower, now i'm off to our irish friend's place to deliver a couple of chairs so that the guys can play poker.
i can't wait to put on my uniform again in the morning :S
every time i walk into my apartment i'm more impressed by just how sweet it is ^_^
i was reading a weekend newspaper magazine over lunch, and was startled to find an article listing 50 ways for israelis to improve their lives by becoming more polite and considerate - i swear i could've authored that one!
it's gonna be 2nd breakfast time soon :)
i met up with SxS, his cousin and ru55 in a park, we chatted for a bit before dropping ru55 off at home - i gave his fiancée a birthday present that she absolutely loved: i didn't realize i was the only one to get her a serious gift, though :$
dinner was amazing: we all ate way too much and after such a long day i've been passing out constantly since. we went off to mmf's place, where yogi, grootbek and our irish friend joined us, and i crashed on the couch while they all watched or played poker. now i'm going to get some real sleep because the last couple of days have really taken it out of me!
oh, and i spoke to my mom and finally admitted (i was asked not to tell, but i can't keep secrets from my mommy) that i'm not going to the kibbutz for passover after all - our cousin and her husband are separating. that leaves me with a couple of choices, and what i really want to do is find out who of my friends aren't celebrating and do the big meal in the style i referred to the other day.
Friday, April 03, 2009
i cam back to find my postbox adorned with a demo disc of dani gilboa with an invitation to his show in half an hour. gotta pack quickly so i can get there on time, it's a neighbourhood event :)
rule: parquet is an absolute MUST. the difference is astounding!
rule: bring in an electrician who's not only from the same neighbourhood, but also happens to be his building's caretaker and familiar with all the laws. our caretaker is now dealing with the grounding.
rule: explain to non-city folk that parking is not to be sneezed at. poor guy took half an hour to find a parking 10 minutes away and he had plenty of stuff to carry.
rule: take advantage of the builder's unfortunate sudden inability to arrive to explore other methods to employ him. i've just discovered a really annoying wiring issue.
rule: if you're planning on buying a squeaky bathtub duck, buy more than one.
i'm taking this opportunity to congratulate myself on taking great measurements for the parquet, and to remand myself for not taking piping into account for the panelling (i'm glad he had an extra of an acceptable finish).
i got to do something useful before going home, but i've been despondent and suffering a severe sense of hopelessness and pointlessness every time i sit in front of my computer so it doesn't count for too much.
apropos the altercation, it wasn't unpleasant but it wasn't good either. it was only late last night and after much irritation that i finally decided to just take whatever comes of the paint / tile / panel story and deal with anything i don't like later.
and i did *so* want things to be right first shot.
i went to lake's last night for coffee, and woke up there this morning. she really upset me and pushed a whole bunch of buttons, and i'm beginning to realize just how bad i've become at letting myself enjoy life. i know i overthink and care too much about all the wrong things, that i can't focus on anything unless i'm wallowing and that even when i can remove the mask i don't because i'm afraid that i'll forget to put it back on.
i have got to start repeating the bill hicks mantra: it's just a ride. just because i'm sacrificing doesn't mean i have to suppress *everything*.
so there's this pretzel shop on dizengof, and i couldn't deny the awesome attractive power of the caramel and almond.
oh, and i bought myself a copy of the alice's adventures in wonderland pop-up :)
and spoke to a man about future space prospects.
instead of typing this on my computer i've been standing a block away waiting for the hardware store to open, but i just remembered that in all the excitement of being hooked up to the net i forgot to brush my teeth.
*enters the elevator*
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
at least karnaf's builder friend isn't worried.
i started getting frustrated at work, but my TL hit upon a really good idea to improve our current readability situation, which gives me hope. nystire introduced me to the wonders of bluetooth networking and zombie last supper, which i'm planning on printing onto wood for my front door.
three of us went to a fair, i bought a washing machine, a fridge and a microwave (the last of which needed to be carried on the bus). on the way we got caught up arguing over just how much of a difference is made by eating during perambulation... i think i'll stick to my less superstitious views.
i'm exhausted, i think after showering and sorting papers i'm going to pass out. i don't like the idea that tomorrow's going to begin with an unpleasant altercation. although maybe it'll be fine?
just another issue. at least i know about it.
i'm having trouble finding cardboard boxes for the move. and the man with the ducks doesn't commit to opening his store at the listed times. and the girl at the checkout and a cute girl on the bus flirted with me - i'd suspect a good hair day if i had any.
i've been thinking about how to approach the guys about the electronic recycling: the only metaphor that comes to mind is that of a man relieving himself on someone else's desk, and then a friend of his coming to his defence by saying that he didn't know better, and at least he's stopped licking it up afterwards.
that's pretty vulgar, but a fairly good approximation of the attitude. i can't wait to get back to my office.
great coffee afterwards, too. i love this city, and i really enjoy lake's company.
and i'm still really excited about my apartment. i'm praying things keep looking up!