from slowdown to speedup

i was completely wasted today. and we began the day with a 3.5 hour meeting that did my head in. the afternoon was spent in a daze, aside from lunch, which was alright.

i pissed off the kid by passing out for about 10 minutes. yeah, that wasn't very nice of me, but after dreaming about database synonyms, i woke up refreshed and with a decent not-too-complicated-to-implement solution. i was then fairly capable of working for the rest of the afternoon.

ignoring the lack of sleep, i've been wasted for the last couple of days mostly due to the instant depression caused by our rude awakening on monday. or was it sunday? i dunno. either way, tonight i've decided that for the rest of my time with these systems i'm just going to go with the flow, and enjoy the fact that the last part of my service on my current base will not be as meaningless as it's been for the past two years.

to aid me with this, i just spent an hour having a long conversation with nystire, who has filled me with hope in addition to the regular trepidation he carries around with him. things will be alright.

lookin' good.

now to do some actual work, and then sleep like a foetus - the metaphor carries on in the morning when i'm evacuated from the womb, kicking and screaming my little (and cigarette-blackened) lungs out as the cold, bitter air of getting to base an hour early to fix a bug awakens me to a dark, miserable world.

but i'm happy now. that's the main thing.