hell for leather

because i just *love* leather.

i have no idea what compelled me to say that. anyways, it was a weird afternoon for me with the family. i find my life so out of my control at the moment, that i really don't have anything to say. everyone kept asking me "how's the army?", and i kept trying to say positive things... and failing. i kept zoning out, and thinking about how crap my life really is at the moment.

on the flip side, the food was fantastic.

i crashed when i came home, and have spent the last hour or so online, watching arbitrary tv, and chatting with my mother about my upcoming game-plan. this is going to be an interesting week.

i had a long talk with SSSO - she's a tad upset that i'm not going to participate in the "business" she's pushing; i tried to explain to her that it's the kind of thing one needs motivation for, and right now the army's stolen that from me.

my word - if i could improve my conditions in the army, i really would have a chance of getting back to being myself. and maybe doing something with my life. that would be nice.